Everything is my fault

I seem to be going through my annual festival of self hate. Everything is my fault! Hurricane Harvey? My fault. Starving children in Africa? My fault. I literally expect to peek over my shoulder and see an angry mob with pitchforks and clubs chasing me down the street.

My logical brain knows this is not true. My bipolar depression is driving the bus these past few days. I hate feeling like this! I want a cure, not just treatment dammit!

I feel sort of like this too ...

I'm at the other extreme, like I think I can overcome the world and hurricane H and all else that is wrong in the world today. I talk a mile a minute, if I am not at work. I put a gag on myself when I am there, LOL...

These incidents may intensify past personal incidents which cause similar feelings.
I have this happening to me - some minor incidents trigger similar yet more impacting past incidents.

And by the way, welcome back. I missed you

Thanks for the welcome back. I went away from the forums because I was afraid of obsessing and posting too much. Then I went through a period of believing I was all better now and don't need any help. Hah! Of course everything comes crashing down after that.

I am so sorry you are suffering with this! I go through this when depressed too.....what is up with this happening? Why on earth does it occur? It's terrible and strange because you know logically you aren't thinking straight but emotionally you can help feel it. Very frustrating!