My seasonal job is ending at the end of October, and I tomorrow I start my new year round job. I was eager to start the new job because the seasonal job is now only Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays. The new job requires one weekend day per week, and this is nonnegotiable. This means on either Saturdays or Sundays Im going to be working 5am-11am at the new job and 1pm-11pm at my old one. I really love my seasonal job, and want to keep the new one so I have some routine midweek.
Also, Novembers are always rough for me. I have been hospitalized every single November for the past 5 years. I have been out of the hospital for 10 months, which is such a long time for me. I really want to break my cycle of spending Novembers in hospitals.
I also made a deal with my family that if I get hospitalized before my seasonal job ends, I will apply for disability. I really don't want to go on disability.
And my therapist is urging me to take a class or two next semester. She thinks I'm too smart to not go to college and degree. She thinks I'm some sort of math/science savant. Even though I flunked out of half my classes when I originally tried going to college.
I don't know. Ranting helps sometimes.

[Sunflower123]

I hope November goes well for you and you avoid the hospital. Good luck with both jobs. Maybe your therapist is on to something. Best wishes.

[Daonnachd]

All the best over the next 10 weeks. We will do everything we can to support you.

[winter loneliness]

Wow. I get manicky in the Fall. I am right now.

I just saw my psychiatrist and made sure I have enough AP to bring me down if I need it. She is out of town for 3 weeks.

Stay strong and practice self care. Maybe skip school for a semester? I did that when I was in college, years ago. I went back later. You have time.

[Cocosurviving]

I completely agree with self care. Also coping skills help me out too. I always start a antidepressant in the fall/winter it helps with my SAD. Be sure and get plenty of sleep and balanced meals