[thadls]

I guess that's how I should introduce myself?? I had a complete breakdown Thursday and talked to my dad for a while and told him some really dark **** that I'd never said out loud. Luckily we were on the phone so I didn't have to say it face to face. But then I had to get it off my chest to my wife. I had her come to the garage as its my happy place in the house. I told her everything I told my dad. She is my rockstar and didn't like what I said. But stayed to listen as we do for each other. Oh, and I'm 35. I've dealt with fits of depression for years and thought it was normal until a few days ago. So I made a post on Facebook offering a listening ear if anyone needed. I felt a little empowered until the next day when I realized that not everyone knows what its like. Then a song got stuck in my head and it made sense why it always hit me so hard. "A flat" by staind. I've always been known as the funniest person in any crowd. Quick witted and unique sense of humor. Most days its really good to be me and really fun to be around me. But then it hits and its completely ugly in the old noggin. So I did some research and basically I've found that I'm bipolar. I even mentioned it Thursday in the conversation with my wife that I might be. I just thought this **** was normal. Almost 100 percent of the time I'm completely a normal guy. I love my wife. I used to be a die hard car guy until I discovered motorcycles and that became my escape from the depression. It works every time 😎 But I can't rely on that. So here's my first step to getting better. Oh, my name is Thad also. Alabama born and raised. Good to finally find out what I've been battling all these years and good to meet all of you.

[Wild Coyote]

Hi Thad,

Welcome to PC and to the Bipolar forum!

Sounds like you have been through a lot.
So glad your wife is there for you!

You may want to firm up your diagnosis with your pdoc?

Hope to see you around the forums.

WC

[Victoria'smom]

I would talk to your dr. if you want meds to help. If not seeing a therapist may help. Welcome.

Welcome and good luck. It sounds like your next step might be to see a doctor for a proper diagnosis?

hi.

welcome.

nice to see a new face around the forum.

I hope the site helps you

[bizi]

welcome to the forums!
bizi

[~Christina]

Welcome to PC it's a great place for support and often just a joke can make my day.

[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC.

[thadls]

Thanks for the welcome! I will look into whatever I need to do. What changes did you guys see after you started talking about it and doing something??

[thadls]

Thanks for the welcome! Work has been completely nuts and defeating the past few days. Anyway, I guess my next step is to see a professional. Before I do, what can I expect? I read that lithium was the most prescribed medication for this. And It doesn't look like some of the side effects are great. And I don't want to feel like a zombie either.