[~Christina]

My T and Pdoc work for a company and that company has an office in each county. I just moved back to Tennessee from Florida and had hoped to go back to my previous providers..... but they had no openings for any more Medicare patients, yes sucks ! Had to set up with the other county.

So I went and talked to the intake T ... here was the problem that T was “ her” T and I told her that right off the bat and “ Sheila” said well this is a conflict... well no shyt ! No way do I want to get help for PTSD knowing that the person who caused every hellish thing to happen use to sit in that room for her own therapy. Hell no!

There is another T that accepts Medicare. So I will see him, I’m not getting my hopes up.... I’m “ trying” to give it a fair shake. The company policy is if your being medicated past anything other than 1 psych med you need to be active in T. Maybe this guy will be okay if not I’ll just waste an hour a month to keep my meds on track.

I miss my old T of 6 years , Richard but he did retire at the end of the year. I’m happy he did he had lots of trips he wanted to take.

The only really great thing is I can continue to see my old Pdoc at the new office so that’s a huge plus for me as for not getting some over zealous pill Nazi type.

I’m so sick and tired of counting the weeks and days since the event took place. I sure many of you are tired of my updates , sigh.

26 weeks and 3 days PTSD and OCD really suck when they tag team ya

[DesigningWoman]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

My T and Pdoc work for a company and that company has an office in each county. I just moved back to Tennessee from Florida and had hoped to go back to my previous providers..... but they had no openings for any more Medicare patients, yes sucks ! Had to set up with the other county.

So I went and talked to the intake T ... here was the problem that T was “ her” T and I told her that right off the bat and “ Sheila” said well this is a conflict... well no shyt ! No way do I want to get help for PTSD knowing that the person who caused every hellish thing to happen use to sit in that room for her own therapy. Hell no!

There is another T that accepts Medicare. So I will see him, I’m not getting my hopes up.... I’m “ trying” to give it a fair shake. The company policy is if your being medicated past anything other than 1 psych med you need to be active in T. Maybe this guy will be okay if not I’ll just waste an hour a month to keep my meds on track.

I miss my old T of 6 years , Richard but he did retire at the end of the year. I’m happy he did he had lots of trips he wanted to take.

The only really great thing is I can continue to see my old Pdoc at the new office so that’s a huge plus for me as for not getting some over zealous pill Nazi type.

I’m so sick and tired of counting the weeks and days since the event took place. I sure many of you are tired of my updates , sigh.

26 weeks and 3 days PTSD and OCD really suck when they tag team ya

Nope. Not tired of your updates. Sharing our lives, stresses, and successes is what we are here for. Keep talking. That's what the forums are for.

[99fairies]

I look forward to seeing your posts. Don't feel like you're posting too much. You are a very wise woman and I'm so impressed with the amazing insight you have shared with those here.

[bizi]

I like hearing of your day and challenges that you face. Good luck in this journey called life.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[HALLIEBETH87]

Love you sweet lady!

[bluemountains]

Nope, I like your updates, but I am confused. Are you getting to see your original pdoc? When you were getting ready to go back you were concerned because you wouldn't be able to go to either of your original people. I hope that part worked out okay. What are the odds, the t of a t screws up everything!
You are always so positive when finding a solution!

[Nammu]

Me neither, not tired of yer updates.

Glad you get to keep the same pdoc at the new office.......med nazis are horrible.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bluemountains

Nope, I like your updates, but I am confused. Are you getting to see your original pdoc? When you were getting ready to go back you were concerned because you wouldn't be able to go to either of your original people. I hope that part worked out okay. What are the odds, the t of a t screws up everything!

You are always so positive when finding a solution!

Yes I do get to see my old Pdoc he
Works in this new office once a week. It’s a huge relief.

I’m grateful I had 6 years with my T he literally saved my life more times than I can count, a great human being. I’m glad he is taking time to take trips and see family more.

But I feel sad for me.

[scatterbrained04]

I'm glad to hear you get to see your old pdoc. Hope new T will be good fit for you.

[bluemountains]

I'm glad your old t is getting to travel, too, and not practicing without you. It sure was nice of your pdoc to open up a new office just for you

[~Christina]

I’ll just add this bit along with this thread, I don’t like to multi thread..

I’m on strong antibiotics and the dreaded steroids for a asthmatic bronchitis so a girl has gotta breathe. But the last few days I am in a steroid rage , hating the world and myself to the degree I want to cut and I have been 5 years clean. I hate the thought of waking up tomorrow. I’m so mean and snappy to everyone and thing .. This hellish place I’m stuckin has to end. I see the new T on Tuesday I don’t expect much.. maybe I will need IP ? Maybe I don’t care enough anymore to reach out for help in the past like I somehow seemed to do so , maybe that part is lost and doesn’t care anymore for the last ditch attempt to keep me safe.

I see no real reason to take another breath. Maybe If I do I’ll find that small glimpse of hope to continue or I’ll lay in bed hoping I fade away.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I’ll just add this bit along with this thread, I don’t like to multi thread..

I’m on strong antibiotics and the dreaded steroids for a asthmatic bronchitis so a girl has gotta breathe. But the last few days I am in a steroid rage , hating the world and myself to the degree I want to cut and I have been 5 years clean. I hate the thought of waking up tomorrow. I’m so mean and snappy to everyone and thing .. This hellish place I’m stuckin has to end. I see the new T on Tuesday I don’t expect much.. maybe I will need IP ? Maybe I don’t care enough anymore to reach out for help in the past like I somehow seemed to do so , maybe that part is lost and doesn’t care anymore for the last ditch attempt to keep me safe.

I see no real reason to take another breath. Maybe If I do I’ll find that small glimpse of hope to continue or I’ll lay in bed hoping I fade away.

more? You are having to endure more?
Maybe IP is in your best interest at this point?
Please don't give up.

Sending love and support.

WC

[Nammu]

Hang in there, if ip is needed then don't hesitate. Take care.

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m sorry that you’re dealing with so much! Steroids on top of everything else!!! It’s so unfair! I hope this new T can help you but I know you don’t hold out much hope. At least you get to see your old pdoc. Please try to hang in there. You are wanted, needed, and loved! You’ve always been here for me in the five years I’ve been coming to PC and I truly hope you get some relief soon.

[~Christina]

Thanks everyone

[Pookyl]

When it rains it pours hey? Hang in there.

[bluemountains]

Many hugs, dear friend. I hope it gets better soon, and it will get better!
Bluemountains