me alone again

didn't take my meds for a few days boy was that a mistake!.... feeling better today just alone even in a crowd. weather dosen't help much grey and foggy. weird for ok. felt so sad and alone yesterday could not funtion. just wanted to sleep and even then my dreams were bad. so i was stuck . no motivation. hopefully today will be less grey for me. been listing to alot of music latley some drives me up most drives me down. guess i am predisposed that way....friends don't have that many i can just set and talk with about this. my husband understands i think! i hope i have friends here who understand me and what i am going through. like i said just down. food - noticed when im down i don't eat as much. probalby not good back to my eating disorder days. in high school i wieght 92 pounds. i see pictures of myself and wonder how come nobody said anything? anyway bigger fish to fry now. our homoe is going througha refinace-ing option with our mortgage comp. verry stress full. moey is shall i say low. we are over extended in our bank account. sucks! kids need money everyday for lunch. i know we owe the school money frome them not being able to pay. these thing make me sad and mad at god. or the higher power. why are thing so wrong. im a good person with good intentions.-onyx

We understand....lifes tough enough without having to endure the ups and downs we feel.Meds are a pain too,I get tired of choking them down everyrday.
I have lots of friends in my hometown but not one could I really open up to unlike here.I wish I had that closeness........talk to someone else face to face with bp.
Im here for ya.