[boogiesmash]

I’ve been doing fairly well lately except for past two hours. Went to the gym and saw myself and my belly. It brought me down. I tried using coping skills to no avail. It went further. I started to think I’m going to be alone again this New Years. Been teary since. I need a boost. I hope I speak with my iop doctor and he can give me vyvanese or some diet pill. I do binge eat at times and can’t control it.

2). I believe my doctor doesn’t think I’m bipolar. He mentioned unipolar nd I’ve been off an ap for about two weeks. So, I use to watch x files as a child and as a grown up. When I was a child, maybe teenage years I would sometimes be afraid to sleep cause I would think aliens would abduct me. I’m having those feelings now. I know it’s 99% not true and I don’t think I’m a great savior in some interstellar war (sounds like a book I’d read) but the thought of abduction is there.

Also I’m constantly asked if I feel people are out to get me. I always answer no, but lately at night I’m sometimes scared to go out cause I think an animal will tear me apart. When I got home from the gym I was a little on the edge and thought someone was behind me (nope no one there) and was looking out for skunks, bears (highly unlikely where I live) and rabid raccoons (raccoons highly likely, they love our dumpster). Am I psychotic?

[99fairies]

I'm in no way a doctor but in my opinion I think you are just experiencing paranoia.

[xRavenx]

Since you are at least able to challenge some of your thoughts (such as the aliens), at least that's a good thing, although it's hard to fully convince yourself. It is technically a paranoid thought, since it has no basis in reality. I would keep an eye on it. Although of course I don't know your patterns, sometimes these fixations can come and go, without crossing into it being indicative of a full-blown psychotic episode. A month ago for the span of a few weeks straight, I was fixated on feeling that I was going to die, if I slept and paranoid about my medication. I kept thinking my family was going to be harmed or that my house would burn down. Luckily, those thoughts died down, although I have some residual paranoid symptoms. I am no longer as preoccupied with my false beliefs....knock on wood. So just be sure to monitor, but I wouldn't panic.

So sorry that you've been struggling. Actually, New Year's was a trigger for me too, when others seemed to be in a great relationship, and I was alone. When I temporarily jumped into something on a dating site, it didn't fulfill me at all, because it wasn't the right person and further reinforced my unhappiness. Body image issues have been affecting me as well. Just saying that I completely empathize with you. (((Hugs)))

[boogiesmash]

I hate being fat. I feel so unattractive and lonely and no confidence. Well guess I got a lot to talk about in iop tomorrow. Anyone have any recommendation on meds for weight loss. Psychiatric meds.

Like 99fairies said, probably paranoia.

It doesn't have to be psychosis, though. Things like OCD can cause paranoia (for example). So it could be anything, really.

My personal opinion: there's a difference between animals/aliens vs thinking the Russian mafia has a hit on you. Technically speaking, an animal tearing you apart is possible (even though highly, highly unlikely), but the Russian mafia hit on you? Not realistic at all.

The alien thing imo is tough to say. It could be a fear stemming from childhood that's resurfacing; in which case, it's not necessarily psychosis. (I'm just presenting a counter argument. It could very possibly be psychosis instead.) But I'm not a dr either. Maybe you can ask a dr what they think?

[~Christina]

Metforum might help a bit

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you are struggling. I agree that you may be experiencing paranoia. I'm glad you have an appointment tomorrow. I hope you feel better soon.

[Shazerac]

Christina is correct, Metformin can help. It's a diabetes med, but many people on psych meds need it because the meds mess with their metabolism. Wellbutrin is also an option because it is more weight neutral and also had a tendency to suppress appetite.

[junkDNA]

Originally Posted by boogiesmash

I hate being fat. I feel so unattractive and lonely and no confidence. Well guess I got a lot to talk about in iop tomorrow. Anyone have any recommendation on meds for weight loss. Psychiatric meds.

Topamax....

[WildcatVet]

I think that since you're questioning your thoughts you're not psychotic. If you truly believed them...and acted on them...then you might be. You sound very lucid.

[boogiesmash]

Well I am on metafirmin and just got prescribed contrave. It is part wellburtin.