[Victoria'smom]

I'm done with this T. I told her I had too much energy and it's very uncomfortable and she said it's because I don't exercise. She didn't ask questions. I didn't tell her much with a response like that. I want to hurt myself more after today. She said we talk about the same stuff and nothing changes. I said I try and she asked if "avoiding co-op because they have cameras seem like I'm trying?" I wouldn't be there if I didn't try. My husband says get a new therapist but I don't want to, I'm done. I may keep my appointment on the 17th but I really have nothing to say to her. I didn't tell her how angry and hateful I've been. How I partially I think If I cut the energy will come out and not blood. If blood comes out than I may loose enough to calm the **** down. She always chop things up to anxiety. I'm so angry.

[Wild Coyote]

Sounds dismissive and angering.

Have you ever thought of writing to her in order to present your truth?

It sounds like she may not listen. Does she give you time to explain and help to clarify what's going on for you?

It's clear to me that you struggle to get yourself to the co-op and you deserve credit for doing so. Maybe you write more clearly than you can share with her verbally?

I understand you don't have many options with selecting another T.

Please find distractions and stay safe.

I feel for you.


WC

[Shazerac]

Too much energy because you don't exercise???? what a crock.

I can see how you would be angry. But please be safe if you cut, blood will come out...not energy.

[Sunflower123]

I agree with WC. Writing a letter to her might be a good idea to tell her your truth. It might be good to give her feedback also that her dismissive answers are not only not helpful but actually harmful. Please stay safe.

[~Christina]

She isnt going to really understand if shes dismissing your situation.

I would write things up and at least get it off your chest even if you decide you dont want to see her again.

Cutting isnt going to do anything but cause you more pain , so emotionally pain and then physical ... I get it as a former cutter but its so risky .

Stay safe.

[Victoria'smom]

I think I'm going to write her a letter. I doubt I'll give it to her but it'll let me get out all the things I need to say without judgment. She dismisses paranoia to anxiety. I'm mad, and tearful this isn't helpful. My leg was shaking the whole time and she's right we're not getting anywhere. Maybe it's me, I'd say probably it's me. but I give up. My past 3 therapists have been pretty ******. I miss my WV T. At least she let me write to her and caught me early. She tried to understand me. We had our fights mostly over involuntary commitment, me trying AP's and med compliance.

[Shazerac]

(((Hugs)))

[Keyplayer]

Hi M .

What the hell does exercise have to do we any emotions , sure you workout enough , relives stress gets you tied and you go to bed , but you still wake up with stuff to deal with ???

Bad T , all the way , Bad T

Stay safe , later ,

Keyplayer 

[all74]

I'm so sorry to hear that experience - and pissed off by it too! I'm a therapist myself (with BPNOS/2) and can say without reservation that you should never see her again. I tell each of my patients up front (first session) that the strength of the relationship between therapist and patient is the single most important factor in predicting success. I encourage them that if for any reason they feel uncomfortable with me they should let me know right away. If we can't work through it I give them referrals. This person appears to be injecting her own crap into the session and that is a HUGE no-no for therapists.

[Victoria'smom]

This is what I wrote.

You’re right this isn’t working. I’m not coming back. I feel I’m wasting both our time. Whether you believe it or not I tried. I came in last time confused, uncomfortable, angry, with racing thoughts, wanting to hurt myself to prove that I actually bleed blood not energy. You chopped it up to anxiety which is fine but I really don’t feel I can work with you. I knew this when you suggested Miguel could go to public school but I kept trying hoping it would get better. I’m obviously not conveying myself or my family dynamics well. I don’t want a referral to another therapist. I’m done with therapy for now. I will continue to see Dr. X for medication

[~Christina]

Good letter, I think you SHOULD give it to her

[Shazerac]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Good letter, I think you SHOULD give it to her

I agree with Christina! Write a letter and give it to her.