[Shazerac]

Somehow I've lost my voice. I don't mean physically but mentally.

I don't know if I've gone numb or just don't have anything to say. My brain is full of color and textures which is good because I'm going to art class today. I think I'm going through start a new canvas and talk with my paint.

I'm usually full all kinds of opinions on just about any subject, but today...nothing. I read people's posts and think "wow that sucks." but I don't know what to say..... I don't even know what's going on my own damned head.

I feel kind of peaceful though. Not depressed or manic. Is this normal for me? Who knows?

I sometimes don't know what to say to people's posts either. I guess I just give out hugs and thanks to let people know they're not alone and that I'm sorry they're not feeling "normal". I don't know if that's the "best" thing to do, but I try to help that way. You could try that if you don't do that already

But anyway, I hope your art class is fun. Art is a great way to express yourself.

[RainyDay107]

I understand what you’re saying...I can also see why you’re a bit pensive. I swear everyone of your posts, I think, “yes, exactly”! (I’m not stalking you but I think your replies are great...or maybe because I think the same? Lol)

I do not experience a lot of “inner quiet” in my head, meaning I’m always thinking about things...not worrying, just busy upstairs. You seem like a lively, bright person - I say let the chi flow, go Zen, Namaste!

But keep us updated...

[Shazerac]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I sometimes don't know what to say to people's posts either. I guess I just give out hugs and thanks to let people know they're not alone and that I'm sorry they're not feeling "normal". I don't know if that's the "best" thing to do, but I try to help that way. You could try that if you don't do that already

But anyway, I hope your art class is fun. Art is a great way to express yourself.

Thank you for this I feel better .

[Shazerac]

Originally Posted by glamslam

I understand what you’re saying...I can also see why you’re a bit pensive. I swear everyone of your posts, I think, “yes, exactly”! (I’m not stalking you but I think your replies are great...or maybe because I think the same? Lol)

I do not experience a lot of “inner quiet” in my head, meaning I’m always thinking about things...not worrying, just busy upstairs. You seem like a lively, bright person - I say let the chi flow, go Zen, Namaste!

But keep us updated...

Awww thank you and Nameste

hi.

when I opened this thread, I thought you meant your physical voice, which kind of made me smile (not because you lost it, that's terrible) but reminded me of a memory from my childhood.

a class at school decided to do a sponsored silence. it was really hard sometimes to figure out what people meant because they couldn't talk

of course, it was also rather peaceful...lol

and I remember my friend charlotte decided oh screw it, i'll just use harsh whispers in sted

so while the whole class were being silent, she was going around talking like a vampire.

sorry.. I had to share that story

funny what triggers memories, right?

anyway
((((hugs))))

I really hope you find your mental voice soon

[99fairies]

I've felt like that before. It's usually when I'm stuck in my head and not really in sync with whats going on around me. I hate it, it sucks. Hope this passes for you soon. Big hugs!

[Wild Coyote]

You gift us all with an amazing amount of support!

My mind takes breaks like you are describing. My mind gets very quiet and I'm at a loss for words. As glamslam has mentioned, it feels very "Zen" to me and although sometimes frustrating, it's a nice break.
You deserve a break, you give a lot!

I hope you find joy today, if only for a moment.

With Gratitude,

WC

[~Christina]

I get that too. Sometimes I enjoy it lol

[emgreen]

This might sound like sloth, but I'm on disability (I worked for 25 years before I couldn't manage anymore). I'm semi-agorophobic lately; most days I don't even leave the house. I'm not always like this, but this mood/state strikes once in a while. Due to staffing problems at my girlfriend's workplace, she's been working 12 hour days for quite some time (I worry about her). When my girlfriend isn't here I don't watch TV, I don't answer the phone recently (part of my isolation), & I listen to music without lyrics (I'm into instrumental jazz). This thread made me realize I live primarily without spoken language. So...I'm basically non-verbal now - save the written language here on PC. I sometimes feel I textually chatter too much here but, for the most part, this is my voice...silent though it may be. I guess what I'm trying to communicate is there are different ways of losing one's voice. Sorry to hijack your thread, but its title led me to an uncomfortable realization.

Your support is really valuable! I hope you are feeling like yourself soon.

I’m so glad you have your art class

[Shazerac]

Nah you didn't hijacknth thread, was in my opinion.

Shazerac-how are you feeling now?

I really do like your posts; you are so caring

[Row Jimmy]

I wish my wife would lose her voice.

Shazerac--

I think it is normal to have high energy days (or periods of time) and low energy days. Sometimes we go through creative periods; othertimes we are just chill and need to rest.

You are very supportive but PC is a large community. Whenever you take a break, usually there are others there to fill in. I hope you never feel like it is an obligation to be a "super supporter" (you are). I even worry that there are people at PC (not saying this is you--I don't know) who are compelled to support others in a way that may be taking up to much of their time.

So maybe focus on some other things for a while and your voice will come back? Go with the flow?