[batteries]

The last two months almost every aspect of my life changed, I had to move, get a new car and a new job. Anyone looking into my life right now would think things are fantastic, and they are, but it seems like now all the chaos is over I feel worse than ever. It was so financially draining that I finally have money to see my t now but lo and behold she's booked out for another month, same as my aprn. I'm on lamictal which seems to be working aside from the fact that I suck at taking it, and my anxiety pills(its actually propranolol) arent doing anything at all but making me dizzy and wearing off half an hour later.
I started cutting again and I can't escape this thought process that all i'll ever be is worthless. I haven't been able to talk to my so about it either cause he's so emotionally blocked off and having health problems that seem to trump mine.
Honestly I don't know what to do, I'm not noticeably cycling right now but I feel like i'm losing it despite doing everything right.

[Northchild]

It's not surprising to me that you're having trouble now. It's like you've just finished a marathon. You've needed to focus entirely on your race and now you've stopped running so hard and you noticed that you've pulled a couple of leg muscles and that you're having a tough time catching your breath.

Just be aware that you've gone through a difficult time and that it's natural to need time to recover and center yourself. Don't be hard on yourself.

[Wild Coyote]

Please call your therapist and/or your prescribing professional and tell them you are in a crisis and need intervention as soon as possible. Most professionals have saved some time in their schedules for emergent needs.

Since you are cutting again, it's time to ask for their help.

Please stay safe.

WC