do you ever feel angry you failed?

in lite of a recent post to the questions thread



then I have to deal with all this ******** about life getting better and me having a lot to live for

sometimes it's too much.

Omg yes I totally understand how you feel! (((Hugs)))

You've been depressed for a long time. Are you on any medication?

Sometimes, maybe often, it all feels like too much, especially when depressed.

(((((( shattered sanity ))))))

I hope things get easier for you soon.


WC

i'm fine.

I triggered myself because I replied to a post in the questions thread I shouldn't have replied too.

and the memory came up of this

so I posted it to get other people's feedback

and yes, I am on medication

like the 50th cocktail that isn't working

(maybe that's exageration saying 50th), but yeah

Sorry to hear you got triggered

It is frustrating when medications don't work. Do you have any options left, or have you tried them all?

But to answer your thread's question: no, I can't relate because I've never been in that sort of predicament, but I understand how you could feel that way. I would probably feel that way too.

have you never attempted?
(and I'm sorry about my previous post)

but you know how it is

Right this moment I'm HAPPY I failed...it's hard, very hard, almost too much...but every so often...there is a crack in everything...that's how the light gets in...
Thank you, Leonard...

I don't know in all honesty. I've never really thought about it. I'm not happy I've failed, but I'm not mad or sad about failing either. I suck at suicide. I've overdosed five times and never succeeded obviously, so I guess I'm just meant to be here.

I've never attempted but my husband has several times as a kid. He's often mad he didn't succeed.

I get angry when I fail ...to control my moods...which is a great setup for failure

(((((((( shattered sanity ))))))))

I’m sorry you’re in pain

I haven’t attempted Suicide although I’ve wanted to

I do get angry that I can’t take medication............

There are a lot of times I am happy I failed but when life gets too much I wish I had succeeded when I was young, when I didnt have a family that would be hurt by it.

my gratitude.

I trigger myself all the time too... it sucks

When I feel low I get mad I wAsnt good enough to succeed but when I'm more stable I realize how blurred that thinking is and I count my blessings for what I do have.

I find the whole process before, during and after very traumatic but I’m glad I didn’t succeed most of the time. When it’s really bad, I’ve wished I’d succeeded at the age of 13 and skipped all this agony but for the most part I’m happy to be here. Sending big hugs.

Yes and no. And it depends what you classify as an attempt.


When I am well, I am glad I'm still here. I have a son that I'm am thankful to get to be a part of his life. If he lost me, he'd be devastated. Knowing this keeps me going.

When I am not well is when I regret that I am still here. But that is the illness talking, not me.

I often wonder what it is the illness says, and what I say

sometimes it is quite confusing

I think you're right. It's super confusing. It seems I'm only able to distinguish it when I've been stable for several months. At this point, I'm nearly convinced that a lunatic possesses my body during episodes, especially mixed ones LOL. That might be an overstatement, but it helps me to separate me from bipolar episode me.

I'm just going to say that the lunatic statement is directed towards myself only and no one else.

it's like the davy jones thing

mannickly speaking, changing my name to davy jones is something I really really want to do

but in the real world, I don't really know if it's something I want because i'm not thinking clearly about it.

I attempted once decades ago when I was a teenager. I'm glad I failed. I wasn't glad at the time.