I don't want to give up, but I kinda am already

Sometimes I wonder if I should give up on medication. I don't take it half the time anyway.

My biggest issue right now is physically swallowing the pills. I've always had issues swallowing pills, but now these issues have grown worse over the past couple of months. The larger the pill, the greater the likelihood I'm going to throw it up. I physically swallow the pill, and the instant it hits my stomach, I feel a strong onset of nausea. I can't always hold it back. It just comes right back up, in less than 30 seconds. (Sorry if that's gross.)

The biggest issue is lamictal (two 200mg pills): I've tried cutting those pills in half on many different occasions, but cutting them in half doesn't help. It's physically too large and the shape is too "sharp". It really needs to be a small, round pill.

I have an endoscopy coming up because I have upper GI issues, but that procedure is not until 2 weeks from now. I just know there is something going on with my stomach and throat (because I've had 3 different doctors tell me this), and I wouldn't be surprised if this pill swallowing issue is related to that. It sucks.

Pharmacist said I can't crush the lamictal.

If you’re not taking extended release Lamictal, I don’t see why you couldn’t crush it. Dissolve it in water and drink it like a fine cocktail .

Yeah, why'd the pharmacist tell you that you can't crush lamictal? That seems silly.

I had a lot of trouble throwing up all my meds as soon as I tried to swallow lamictal or lithium carbonate capsules. My pdoc switched me to the "baby" version of lamictal so I took 7 little chewable pills instead of the ones that made me throw up. I took them in baby food so that I could vary the taste that I was associating with the pills and that helped too (when I took it with pudding seeing the pudding made me sick or whatever). I also changed to a different form of lithium and the vomiting stopped for the most part.