[raspberrytorte]

I'm not working right now. Since getting out of the hospital my daughter has been babysat while my husband is at work, so I don't have any child duty. I spend most of my days not showering, pacing around, "checking out" (aka taking my remeron and purposely sleeping), burning paper to make the negative entity go away, constantly writing down positive affirmations to conjure up positive energy, and doing a minimal amount of novel planning. And spending time being paranoid.

And I'm worried about our cat Murphy, who is dying of liver failure, so I'm pretty depressed about that. He's still holding on though. According to the vet he should be dead by now, but he's not. Which I attribute to writing over and over again that he will get better.

I don't clean or anything. I do the dishes sometimes. I'm such a horrible homemaker! I can't seem to get it together since my last overdose. Before that I was on top of everything (taking care of daughter, cleaning the apartment, etc.). Now I'm just a big mess. Maybe I need to make lists of all the things I want to accomplish the night before.

I also can't go anywhere because my husband has the car. Not that there's really anywhere I'd want to go now that the weather is ******.

What do you do all day?

[HALLIEBETH87]

I volunteer at church and I am starting a new part time job doing peer support for Centerstone. I also spend time with family.

[boogiesmash]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

I'm not working right now. Since getting out of the hospital my daughter has been babysat while my husband is at work, so I don't have any child duty. I spend most of my days not showering, pacing around, "checking out" (aka taking my remeron and purposely sleeping), burning paper to make the negative entity go away, constantly writing down positive affirmations to conjure up positive energy, and doing a minimal amount of novel planning. And spending time being paranoid.

And I'm worried about our cat Murphy, who is dying of liver failure, so I'm pretty depressed about that. He's still holding on though. According to the vet he should be dead by now, but he's not. Which I attribute to writing over and over again that he will get better.

I don't clean or anything. I do the dishes sometimes. I'm such a horrible homemaker! I can't seem to get it together since my last overdose. Before that I was on top of everything (taking care of daughter, cleaning the apartment, etc.). Now I'm just a big mess. Maybe I need to make lists of all the things I want to accomplish the night before.

I also can't go anywhere because my husband has the car. Not that there's really anywhere I'd want to go now that the weather is ******.

What do you do all day?

Hey ras, sorry you are going through a tough time. I know what it’s like taking sleep meds to purposely sleep the day away. Iop has helped me combat this and been doing better cause of it. I’m not sure what to suggest but I’ll give you my day today, that I was off from both jobs.

Woke up at 730, checked email then did some light stretching, yoga poses. Took a shower ate breakfast and went to iop. Got out at 1230, then headed to pick up an off week paycheck from my job. Then got home ate some Spanish food for lunch. Was very sleepy after that. One thing that I learned or developed, was “the push”. Maybe it’s opposite action (didn’t really think that till writing this). I forced myself to get up get some coffee do some dishes, plan my meals and read a bit. The reading part was a bit tough. Had a light snack then went to the gym. Went food shopping afterwards and picked up a couple of movies I haven’t seen from redbox. Now I’m writing this, checking the forum and about to watch one of the movies.

I hope you can pick something up from this, if not I’ll chat some more with you .

[~Christina]

I don’t even know what I have been doing ....the Pain and rage-y stuff take over my every minute

[Pookyl]

I do sweet F.A.
Honestly, if I don't work at keeping my environment 'low stimulation' I can end up in an episode really fast.
E.g. Going to the gym for 45min makes me buzzy so I have to follow up with mindfulness-style music and slow deep breathing exercises and/or prn's.
I have no suggestions. Just commiserations.

I’m either working, or because I’m unfortunately addicted to the internet, I’m online to keep me from having to think about anything because of anxiety. The anxiety is getting better, but my behavior is barely improving.

[stopchewinggum]

Working on developing on new moral system that is neither humanistic, nihilistic, or theistic. Realizing my existence is pointless. Yup, that's pretty much how my days are spent right now.

depends on my mood.

sometimes, I will devote an entire day to my creative side and write stories and poetry

sometimes, I will play video games until i've advanced like 50 levels

sometimes I will choose to catch up on my tv programmes (1 of the things I do is record my shows, so I always have stuff to watch from the night before)

I've been known to spend days just on here

days just staring off in to space

days jamming out to my fave music

days doing a variety of those all in 1 day

it just depends- on days where I have visits from my mental health worker for example, it can alter my plans because I don't know how long she'll stay or, in most cases, wha time she is ariving

even though i'm agoraphobic, 1 of the things i'm trying to do is go out and listen to the birds.

but now with the colder weather, not really an option

[bpforever1]

I have more time on my hands because my teaching hours were cut. I am learning Japanese again. This will take most of my time. I am hoping to become fluent in a year. I am very motivated. I want to work as a bilingual worker. I know I can do this!!

[Moreta]

I chill and watch TV till 11:45, then go to the gym, after the gym I go to the shake club and talk to whoever is there for an hour, sometimes longer lol. then I come home and chill a bit more, make dinner at 5, go to bed around 8 or 9. Spend a lot of time on FB posting funny memes. sometimes I get motivated to do some housework, sometimes not.

[WildcatVet]

Basically nothing right now...visit forums just to try and occupy my mind so the thoughts don't take over...

[99fairies]

While my kids are in school I clean and watch youtube videos. When they are home I take care of them

[fishin fool]

I do a fair amount when the weather is warm, fishing, the beach and more but
in the winter I really don't do much at all except fight depression and wish it was
summer. If I am lucky and depending on finances maybe a trip to Florida or Mexico
but can't afford to do that every year. If I could I would spend all winter in Mexico.

[251turnaround]

I'm unemployed too and recently I've been spending my days learning instruments and music theory, browsing the internet, and occasionally some video games. If the weather permits, I may also go outside for some exercise. I try to be as productive as possible, even if I can't get anything done. Depression makes getting motivated to do stuff rather difficult.