[graystreet]

I started off my day feeling pretty comfortable. Now, for some reason, I feel like a terrible person.

I don't do well in work situations; I've never mixed well with coworkers, where people essentially have to be nice to me, but I feel as though people don't really want to be friends with me.

I have always had trouble maintaining confidence in myself. I wish I had an eff it attitude because, really, it doesn't matter if my coworkers accept me, does it? I have (very few) friends. I have goals which fulfill me. But I suppose I remember all of the rotten things I've ever done or said to people--which is a lot of things--and I believe that I'm a horrible, terrible person.

[glennk]

If you have contact with the people you've done or said bad things to? If so, write a letter. Get it out of your system. You don't have to send it, but rather get it out of the brain and on paper

[graystreet]

Originally Posted by glennk

If you have contact with the people you've done or said bad things to? If so, write a letter. Get it out of your system. You don't have to send it, but rather get it out of the brain and on paper

There are just so many. And no, most of them...no. Most of them have blocked me, or don't want to speak to me. Or it's been so long ago, that I wouldn't have a clue how to get a hold of them. Or I don't even really remember their name, just what I did.

My aunt, my father, and my stepmother want nothing to do with me. I don't know that this is entirely my fault, but after a long childhood of rejection it is like, the bottom row of Jenga blocks that got pulled out. You know? I just can't seem to put the blocks back together. My half-sisters (whom I just met about 8 years ago) want a relationship with me (long story) but after this rejection, I can't seem to bring myself to do it. And like I said, I know it isn't all my fault. But it overshadows everything in my life.

[Sunflower123]

(((( graystreet ))))

[~Christina]

Im sorry your in such a struggle on many levels. I think the best advice I can offer is ...

Be kind to yourself...