Hypersexuality Extreme Fantasy Issues

Hi. I was diagnosed with bipolar stage 2 when i was 18. Since i was young i always had high sexual urges but never acted on them. Any time it was time to get physical with someone I'd shut down and felt uncomfortable to continue. I'm older now and still have the same issues with physical contact. What bothers me most is the frequency and high sexual urges i have that can't physically act on. Another issue and probably the main one is that my sexual urges are for forced intercorse. Can anyone help, does anyone else go through the same thing? Is it normal? What can i do to keep the urges away?
I take lamotrigine 150mg and hydroxyzinepam that help with my mood swings amd anxiety but don't take a way the urges.

I personally don't like physical contact (doesn't stem from forced anything, I just don't like to be touch - be it sexual or non sexual manner). It made sex very hard and it wasn't until I met my wife did that really change. It took a long time for us to get to a physical phase in our relations because of it (even holding hands was a little too much for me and took a good month for me to convince myself to try it!).

As for the urges, I personally don't think they go away. I believe it's part of human nature. As a species we're designed/hard wired to reproduce and sexual urges help increase the chances of reproducing. When it came to urges before I got married I just struggled with them. I know that's not very useful, but I just wanted to let you know you're not alone in the struggle. Maybe someone else can help you.

I cant speak to it all, but I can tell you your urges are normal. Forced sex fantasy in the bdsm community is called CNC. Consentual non consent and it is a very common fantasy. I would encourage you to look into it if interested. I myself am a masochist who seeks pain. Some people will find that odd, but its my normal. Pm me if you have questions.

Is there a past trauma that contributed to the "shutting down". I know that when I was younger my father was abusive and force would be used if any of my siblings showed any interest in the opposite sex. It took me a while to feel comfortable enjoying things.

As far as the fantasies, as long as you aren't acting on them without consent, it happens fantasies are just thoughts. There are however, people who enjoy role playing this fantasy. It's actually kind of common so don't feel bad. The only thing that would be wrong is say actually planning to do this or going through with it.

If you don't like the intensity of the urges you can always talk to your psychiatrist about increasing medication or adding a new mood stabilizer.