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Old Nov 28, 2017, 03:40 PM
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I already told my closest friend but i need support. I thought i was feeling better, but some things are lingering.

I had thought all the scary thoughts were gone because, well, I haven't been scared and obsessing over them. So I told my t this morning that I was doing better since Sunday which is when I started getting relief. The thoughts are getting louder now. I know it was stupid not to tell him I had had a few scary thought this am but I really thought I was better. Stupid me.

I used to see this t in the past for about 9 months but we never got into deep therapy and now Ive been seeing him for a few months I guess. I trust him but not as much as I did my former t, yet anyway. I trust him now more than I did at first but its difficult for me to trust sometimes. Im working on it. I am.

In the meantime I am just hoping this feeling of demons inside me controlling me doesnt get out of control. It feels real again and I cant explain it where it will make sense.


Im waiting til Thursday and if I dont feel better I am going to call my pdoc back and ask for an appointment and also email t about what I have done.

Im sorry for annoying threads.
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Old Nov 28, 2017, 03:43 PM
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You're not stupid. You're having a hard time with this illness. If this helps you, keep doing it.

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Old Nov 28, 2017, 03:54 PM
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I already told my closest friend but i need support. I thought i was feeling better, but some things are lingering.

I had thought all the scary thoughts were gone because, well, I haven't been scared and obsessing over them. So I told my t this morning that I was doing better since Sunday which is when I started getting relief. The thoughts are getting louder now. I know it was stupid not to tell him I had had a few scary thought this am but I really thought I was better. Stupid me.

I used to see this t in the past for about 9 months but we never got into deep therapy and now Ive been seeing him for a few months I guess. I trust him but not as much as I did my former t, yet anyway. I trust him now more than I did at first but its difficult for me to trust sometimes. Im working on it. I am.

In the meantime I am just hoping this feeling of demons inside me controlling me doesnt get out of control. It feels real again and I cant explain it where it will make sense.



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Im waiting til Thursday and if I dont feel better I am going to call my pdoc back and ask for an appointment and also email t about what I have done.

Im sorry for annoying threads.
Hope you find the help you deserve. You have strength in getting help. Take care. I'm so weak minded, don't deserve help. Or too afraid to get better. I'm gutless. You are strong! Hoping the best for you.
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Old Nov 28, 2017, 07:33 PM
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Stupid ? Nada .. Your just needing support , we all do at times.
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Old Nov 28, 2017, 09:13 PM
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how can i get rid of the demons?
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Old Nov 28, 2017, 09:25 PM
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Keep grounding and coping skills going
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Old Nov 28, 2017, 09:27 PM
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i am chatttig on facebook, watching xmas comedies and curled up in bed
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Old Nov 28, 2017, 10:15 PM
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Old Nov 28, 2017, 11:58 PM
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Keep posting here and let you t and pdoc know. You seem to be doing all the right things. It's so up and down, I've also felt OK when seeing pdoc to only hit the skids right after. I understand, big hugs your way!!
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Old Nov 29, 2017, 12:15 PM
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I'm at work trying
To the best I can.

Still having those thoughts. I have a meeting with my boss at 3 for supervision.
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Old Nov 29, 2017, 02:35 PM
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im stupid, im sorry
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1). Depression
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3). Anxiety
4). Hashimoto
5). Fibromyalgia
6). Asthma
7). Atopic dermatitis
8). Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria
9). Hereditary Angioedema (HAE-normal C-1)
10). Gluten sensitivity
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Old Nov 29, 2017, 02:37 PM
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Hello there....your not stupid at all. We all need support. I have really learned that coping skills and self-care really help out.
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Spoons are a visual representation used as a unit of measure to quantify how much energy individuals with disabilities and chronic illnesses have throughout a given day.

1). Depression
2). PTSD
3). Anxiety
4). Hashimoto
5). Fibromyalgia
6). Asthma
7). Atopic dermatitis
8). Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria
9). Hereditary Angioedema (HAE-normal C-1)
10). Gluten sensitivity
11). EpiPen carrier
12). Food allergies, medication allergies and food intolerances. .
13). Alopecia Areata
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Old Nov 29, 2017, 04:44 PM
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feeling any better?
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Old Nov 29, 2017, 05:31 PM
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Not quite

I ended up calling my
Pdoc and he upped my Latuda

!?
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Old Nov 29, 2017, 07:05 PM
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Hopefully that works well for you.
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