I’ve lost my reasons.

Hello.

I’m not quite sure how it’s managed to get this bad I have been stable for a long time (years). But over the past few months I’ve been walking around with a secret realisation that I do not want to be here anymore.

I’m really, really struggling to find a reason to keep living. I have a beautiful daughter and a great partner. But somethings had stripped the meaning out of my life. I’m a logical person, so usually I can think to myself ‘okay, you are ill and this is not real, it will pass...’ but my belief systems have seemed to change. I can’t see the point?

I’m trying to do and keep busy, but there’s Nothing meaning to it all, like I’m in autopilot. I have good moments some times where I enjoy myself, but they seem more like distractions.

The thing is, I know that I need to take action and tell someone, but I can’t seem to bring myself to do it. I don’t see the point?

I’m walking a thin line right now. I felt it as soon as I woke up this morning.

(((((((hugs)))))

I am sure if you wern't here your daughter would miss you terribly

(I know sometimes it doesn't seem that way,), but she would.

I am sure their's probably a few other things too

small things (even if they are tiny), in your daily life worth living for.

how did you distract yourself when it happened before?. their is a good starting point.

why do you not see the point of telling others?

is it because you feel you don't deserve help, or because you feel that you're mind's made up, or something