[eye2797]

When you have some part of being stable, do you ever look for a higher high.

When I feel stable, which isn't very often and doesn't normally last very long I want it to go higher. I guess like looking for it to be hypo. I spend so much time depressed or numb that when I go above that , I want more.

I have been on a new med combo and it at this time is working for me and I am happy.

[Aliceiw]

Well, considering the natural high that hypomania gives you does similar things to you as a drug yes it can be addicting. I think many people go off of medication to chase it. My brother has specifically told me he's done this before. I wouldn't recommend it though, leads to pain further down the road.

I personally love it. I have to fight myself to make changes to my medications to stop it. It makes me sad to see it go.

[taybaby]

Personally my hypomania feels good for approximately 2ish days before it turns sour and I become extremely agitated and uncomfortable and feel as though my skin is crawling. For me I can barely enjoy the good feelings of hypomania because I am just wondering when is it going to crash.

But I do love my confidence when I'm hypomanic. I feel like the most beautiful woman alive lol.

[annielovesbacon]

I feel this way too. I started a new med (lamictal) last month and after slowly upping the dosage I can finally feels its effects and for the first time in YEARS I feel stable. And it's super weird. I am finding myself longing for the high of hypomania even though I know all the risky behaviors and terrible decisions that come with it.

[Gabyunbound]

I've felt like this for a long time now -when I was unstable and now that I'm stable. I crave hypomania like a drug. This is the main reason why I occasionally long to stop all my meds. The only reason I don't is out of fear: fear that I'll get depressed instead of hypo, fear that even if I were to get hypo, it would turn into mania.

I go through periods of feeling numb and this makes the cravings all the worse. Socially I often feel boring, when I would be the life of the party when hypo and at the least not boring when not hypo (meds, anyone?). Ugh, if only one could be hypo but be able to control it at will so you don't do something embarrassingly irrevocable or go on to full blown mania and, in my case, delusions.

[~Christina]

Its hard to not want the fantastic Hypo and everything is bright and shiny..

But ... Then it almost always turns and there is a path of destruction in your wake

Stability is going to feel "boring" but its not, Its Balance

Hypo/Mania can be addictive.. But often the cost isnt worth it.

[eye2797]

I have not had stability in such a long time and whenever I do , I have a hypo phase and than a huge crash. I am hoping this time with the new meds that I can maintain.

I also have problems knowing who the real me is when it comes to mood and such. I will say I do like the happy bubbly me the most.

I guess when one is so down all the time the higher they can reach feels great. Thats how I see it.

[UpDownAround]

I nearly always get happy puppy hypomania and usually top out at an annoyance to others rather than a danger to myself. I seem to have stabilized recently and kinda miss that. It also has made the fog I have in addition to BP seem worse because now all my attention is focused on it. I have a neuro appointment because t and pdoc can't figure out what the fog is. Not holding out much hope since I saw a neuro about it several years ago, who found nothing, and it hasn't changed.