[wildflowerchild25]

Another week has gone by and thankfully it has been a better week. It’s been back and forth but mostly in an upward trend. I still don’t feel 100% but maybe that’s best because A slow improvement might mean a more permanent improvement. I spend less time utterly, abjectly depressed and more time mildly depressed or “okay”.

I think the rexulti might be causing exhaustion as I’ve been sleeping for about fourteen hours collectively during the night/day, but I’m sticking with it until at least January. Today was the best day yet; even though I slept until 10:15 (with a short waking period to get my son on the bus), and even though I took a three hour nap in the afternoon, I still managed to finally put my son’s laundry away. It’s heen sitting in the hamper for two weeks. I also washed dishes, took the trash out, and started new laundry. I cooked on Tuesday and yesterday. Today we went to McDonald’s but I had a salad.

Even though I am hopefully on my way to wellness I honestly don’t feel I can return to my job. The only thing stopping me is I only have $2000 left in my savings. But I feel like if I go back I will be out again within a month. I’ve been looking at admin assistant jobs online. I really feel I’d be more comfortable and less stressed in a job like that, although I know any job has the potential to be stressful. And obviously I’d only make maybe half of what I make, but money isn’t everything. What does money matter if I’m hospitalized all the time? I just can’t face going back to my job at all. I’ve decided to let my certificate expire anyway, so I would only have it until the end of the year. It’s not worth suffering through another six months. The only benefit would be pay and health insurance. Big benefits, surely, but...

Anyway. Hope things continue upward. I’m not going to make any major decisions until the new year.

[~Christina]

Glad your feeling better ! Great news.

I think a new career would benefit you greatly

: hug:

[Wild Coyote]

I am happy for you, in that you are starting to feel better. Easy does it.
You have lots to consider career-wise. I am sure you'll make the right decision when the time is right.


WC

[liveforsummer]

Glad your starting to feel a bit better. Sometimes a career change can be therapeutic. Been humming and hawing that one over myself last few years.
You’ve lots to think about, take your time, I’m sure you’ll make the best choice for you

[Guiness187055]

I am happy things are starting to look up for you.

[Nammu]

Slowly but surely. Smart to put off major life decisions until you feel even better. ((((( hugs)))))

[wildflowerchild25]

Finally took a real shower. Like shaved, exfoliated, everything. I feel better but I’m also feeling very down on myself for the amount of weight I’ve gained in such a short period of time. I lost a lot over the summer and I’ve gained it all back and then some due to meds and depression. I might as well have stayed on invega and avoided all this heartache.

I’m also overwhelmed with my house. I haven’t cleaned properly in weeks and it shows. I don’t even know where to start.

I know recovery is a slow process so I need to cut myself some slack. I think today I’m going to try to just get one room cleaned up properly. I’ve also started to focus more on diet and slowly changing what I eat. I actually did much better this week in terms of WHAT I ate, but still terrible in how much I ate. But it will come in time I suppose.

[hopeless2015]

I'm glad your starting to feel better. I think taking on one thing at a time is the way to go. Take things one day at a time, you've been through a lot. You need to give yourself time to heal. Big hugs!

[99fairies]

Great to hear you're starting to take better care of yourself! Small steps, you can do this!

[Nammu]

Great....one room at a time....you will do it

[wildflowerchild25]

Cleaned the kitchen, then destroyed it making gingerbread cookies with my son lol. Well at least we had fun and it’s still cleaner than it was.

[~Christina]

Good for you !

Small steps add up