[Tucson]

I had a shock today. I am very frightened. I hope I remain stable. I almost witnessed a big fight right in front of me. There is this unstable, very angry person across the street. He was trying to pick a fight with my son in law whose is a very capable fighter. I was very scared that this was happening to me. I knew that if it started, that neighbor of mine would of ended up in the hospital. I never had this happen to me before. I am still frightened that neighbor will be banging on my door all out of control.

Now the reason I am posting this is that I may end up in a tailspin and be very depressed. When something like this shocks me, scares me, I can end up very depressedince since I feel my life has become out of control. I need to do something like grounding techniques, which I know little about. Maybe I should sleep in a hotel for the night. This fear is becoming overwhelming. I thought of calling a crisis line to have someone to talk to. Now that neighbor is texting me over and over. I feel helpless.

Does anyone have any ideas to help me? Just posting here can help me.

[Sunflower123]

How are you doing? Have things calmed down for you? Calling a crisis line is a good idea and so is posting here.

[99fairies]

So sorry you had to witness that and that it shook you up so bad. I hope things can calm down for you soon and you don't go into an episode. big hugs.

[Tucson]

I just was in a terrible car accident. I was t-boned when someone hit me at about 50 mph. The saga continues. I just do not know what to do with myself. I cannot handle this. A nightmare. I do not want to end up IP. Nobody knows that I was IP, including my daughter and her mothers family. I do not want my daughter to see me in one of those places. But I may just end up there.

[99fairies]

You were in a car accident today? Are you okay?

[Tucson]

I could not open the car door. There was allot of smoke. I eventuall got out the passenger side. An ambulance took me to the hospital. I am out now. A little sore. I will lose my license, and car insurance. I have lost my totaled car. I probably be sued. I want a reset button for this part of my life.

[99fairies]

Oh my goodness!! I am so sorry Tucson... Lots of big hugs.

[Tucson]

There is something increadible that has happened during this. My daughters brothers see me as their step father. I never married their mother. One said that I made him who he is today. My jaw dropped on the floor. I did not know what to say. I am so lucky.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

The important thing is that you are ok. Take everything else one step at a time. Try not to panic about losing your license. If you were t-boned it doesn't sound like it was your fault but it does sound like you are fortunate to have survived without injury.

Try to relax and be sure to take some ibuproferon before bed.

[Cornucopia]

Do you have someone to talk to?
In a stressful situation it helps talking to someone that is both understanding and also have the ability to give you positive energy. I am glad to hear you got that nice feedback from your bonus-kids

I try to avoid energy-draining/negative people when not stable, and try to find things I think will help. Sometimes I do it by myself, sometimes it helps when I talk to others, just to distract me from spiraling into bad thoughts. (I call them black holes, when close enough I will get dragged in, so I try to avoid them at all)

Sorry to hear about everything that has happened. Except for the step dad thing, that is awesome. That must be one of the nicest compliment one can get. Imagine that- someone is grateful for you in a way that has had significant meaning in their life Try to hang on to that and relax as much as you can. Don't hesitate to contact someone who can help you if you need it.

[Tucson]

Thank you for all of your support and suggestions. I am going to go out to dinner with my step son.

[99fairies]

How are you feeling today? Sore?

[luvyrself]

Originally Posted by Tucson

I had a shock today. I am very frightened. I hope I remain stable. I almost witnessed a big fight right in front of me. There is this unstable, very angry person across the street. He was trying to pick a fight with my son in law whose is a very capable fighter. I was very scared that this was happening to me. I knew that if it started, that neighbor of mine would of ended up in the hospital. I never had this happen to me before. I am still frightened that neighbor will be banging on my door all out of control.

Now the reason I am posting this is that I may end up in a tailspin and be very depressed. When something like this shocks me, scares me, I can end up very depressedince since I feel my life has become out of control. I need to do something like grounding techniques, which I know little about. Maybe I should sleep in a hotel for the night. This fear is becoming overwhelming. I thought of calling a crisis line to have someone to talk to. Now that neighbor is texting me over and over. I feel helpless.

Does anyone have any ideas to help me? Just posting here can help me.

----Glad you went to dinner w your stepson. Lots of positive energy!
My therapist has a trick for maximum anxiety. It helped me heal from a bad med change w major anxiety. She said imagine pushing the fear balls away-just bat them away. I then found zoning on Netflix very helpful because I was in no condition to be handling problems. Handle things in baby steps or w help until you feel stronger.
I also find that exercise keeps things manageable, and talking often to very positive people. I found a new bipolar group that reminds me that I am not alone. Your friend in Phoenix

[Sunflower123]

I’m glad you are ok after the incident of the other night and your being in a car accident.

[Tucson]

More parts of me are hurting. I will be OK. I have to figure out what to do with my car. I really do not want to use my line of credit for this, but I may have to. Not good at all on the monthly payments. So far that neighbor of mine has left me alone. I do not think he told his mother. In the future, I will no longer go to his mother when I want her to help me. They both live together.