[SorryShaped]

Is it possible to be too present in the moment? If I completely release every prior moment to have a new moment immediately, does this mean I'm choosing unwisely or perhaps there could be issues?
I choose some days to be wide and wildly open. It wouldn't take more than a "hey would you like to" before I'll answer yes. Some of that's because of boredom, but some is also because I want new experiences. I'm craving the different. I used to do this with books, movies, music, media, etc all the time but this past week I did it with every thing. If something new presented itself I went for it, ie classes at the gym, someone in the store asking if I knew where something zzz was or if I'd tried yyy or anything, I did it, without thought of consequences. Thankfully nobody tried to get me to do anything illegal or unsafe, and most people won't anyway. But, they might could have easily. I swear if that one woman calls me doll or baby doll again I'm asking her to take me out to play with me. I did volunteer to help someone I barely know move into a house, because she was talking about needing help and I was there. Why not? I tried a new drink because someone was talking about one. I didn't like it but I tried it anyway. I bought a weirdo coffee but only on the condition that the barista could not say whom bought it, and had to tell them they could choose to be called "cute interesting weirdo" for free coffee or not and buy their own. They bit. I asked about person what they were reading, borrowed their book, and read four pages aloud because I could. All of that was yesterday. Post gym, when I feel like a billion quarters.
I feel this open today too but haven't been to the gym yet.
Am I mildly manic or fully in the present moment? I have no idea.

I have no idea but when you post this stuff I can't help but smile. You are such a cool person.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by TheSadGirl

I have no idea but when you post this stuff I can't help but smile. You are such a cool person.

What do you mean by "when?" I just posted it. I'm not now, nor have I ever been, cool m

I have no idea if you're manic or fully present. When you post stories of your adventures I smile.

Is that more clear? My brain goes to fast for my hands. If not cool than what? Fun. Interesting. Neat. You are.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by TheSadGirl

I have no idea if you're manic or fully present. When you post stories of your adventures I smile.

Is that more clear? My brain goes to fast for my hands. If not cool than what? Fun. Interesting. Neat. You are.

All I can say is thank you. My survival instinct tells me you're up to something, but that's my past talking.
Again, thank you, at face value

Originally Posted by SorryShaped

All I can say is thank you. My survival instinct tells me you're up to something, but that's my past talking.
Again, thank you, at face value

No ulterior motive. I consider you a friend and think you are awesome. That's all.

[LadyShadow]

Totally manic, because I too have been there before. Moreso, just had an explicit connection with the universe where no matter what I was asked, I just did, because I was totally aware in the present moment.

Being manic makes your senses heightened to almost super hero status. God I miss it.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Totally manic, because I too have been there before. Moreso, just had an explicit connection with the universe where no matter what I was asked, I just did, because I was totally aware in the present moment.

Being manic makes your senses heightened to almost super hero status. God I miss it.

I know that manic I can do it all. But, this is more of an I'll try it because I'm bored, feeling stagnant, lonely in all respects, and have been so disconnected from it all. I'm also dealing still a bit with a failed marriage even though it ended a year ago. My ex-aversary(wedding anniversary) is in a few days and the divorce day is middle next month, the middle. Yes. That day. The one nobody would want. I feel like the one nobody would want and being open gives me the opportunity to be a one for someone, in my opinion. Effit. I'm at the gym now

[SorryShaped]

The odd thing is my mania always lacks sleep for a few days first. Usually 3 or 4. Fitbit says I'm at 8 to 10 hours a night, with 7 to 8 being deep. I also seriously just crossed the student-teacher line with a yoga instructor that I do have a thing for but never really talk about it because I'm afraid I could become serious about her because she's very much my type. See below. I don't even want to get into things with anyone including her but I did that anyway. Maybe a bit manic or something. I have had a ton of caffeine (8 cups of coffee) and yerba mate (5 servings) and chocolate (giant 7 oz bar!) too though