Irritated but no mood episode

Hey guys. I have a question about what's going on with me.

I've been getting irritated for no reason, and I'm not experiencing a mood episode. I don't feel happy nor do I feel depressed. I'm pretty numb actually. But I'm still getting irritated and there's nothing causing the irritation. I've been seeing/hearing things too and keep thinking my phone is recording me, it's hard to describe what's going on. I see/hear things even when I'm not in a mood episode. I'm having a hard time finding the energy to do anything too. I feel no motivation towards anything and it's like I'm just existing instead of living. I have to push myself to shower every few days and haven't been doing things I normally do in over a year. I was in IP recently for a severe depressive episode .. then I went into a mixed episode. Now I'm just numb and irritated for no apparent reason. I can't see my pdoc yet since my car is broke down so I'm stuck at home dealing with this, I can reach out to friends/family but none of them understand what I experience. So they can't be much of help. The only thing I can do is get on here and ask you guys for advice. I've been told before I might have schizoaffective disorder and not just bipolar. But I'm having a hard time right now trying to deal with my darn mind not working properly. I wish I would just stop seeing/hearing things .. I keep hearing things fall in the next room but everytime I go check there's nothing on the floor. I've been seeing shadows following me around sometimes, lately it's been just hearing things falling though. I just want to be normal already

I'm sorry you are going through this. Things will improve... the magic we call bipolar. It always changes. Big hugs in the mean time.

Lamictal fixed my irritability. great stuff!

For me irritation is a part of my Mania, I hate it ... everything pisses me off

Yeah. Mania and hypomania is not euphoria for me. It irritation bubbling and spitting.

I’m so sorry that you’re feeling this way. Irritation is definitely part of my mood episodes, but there are days when I just get irritated for seemingly no reason. I don’t have any helpful advice for you, I just hope you feel better soon