Do you ever get used to it?

Bipolar people are otherworldly and mania used to be considered a divine state in ancient times you are right to mourn the loss of that profound energy.

I'm "normal" and feel I've lost myself. I hardly talk to anyone including my family. Unless I'm telling someone they need to do something. I'm a *****. I hate it. I would go off my meds but then no one will listen to me. It's not like they listen to me now but if I'm noncompliance the insurance may take my meds away. Even my therapist hated me. My husband said I'm not that bad but I really am. I have no idea how to change me.

If I could be "normal" like a "Jane Doe" or "Joe Shmoe" I would take that opportunity at a heart beat. Actually, my moods are fairly well controlled. My only main issue is my inability to handle certain amounts of stressors (that "Jane Doe" can usually handle) with no problem. My head is clear and I'm generally fine otherwise. I do sometimes go on a "Wish I could do more like a normal person" kick, but usually I just try to appreciate what I have.

One can be very happy when stable. It may take a while to realize, but being very happy and excited does not ALWAYS equate to hypomania or mania.