[Ysabet]

Hey there,

I've recently (past couple of months) found myself in a complete lack of emotion. Usually, when on an upswing or downswing, I have something going on in the emotional world. This last depressive cycle coming up to the manic put a screeching halt to anything and everything, it seems.

I have absolutely no will to do anything. Total burnout is what I can equate it to, but I don't recall every being overloaded in any one thing to be burned out. Like a numbness. I go to try to do something, like cook, play minecraft, something... and click, the brain goes off and I just can't seem to get into it. No feeling of depression or mania, just nothing.

In all my years with bipolar, et al, I've not had this particular problem before.

Any ideas?

I find when I feel like doing nothing, starting off very small and very easy helps. Taking a bath, for example, or washing some dishes. Anything to get me doing -something-, you know?

Exercise gives me a large boost of energy and relaxation, so I try to force myself to do it even on my "off" days. My mood changes considerably between pre-exercise and post-exercise. I know it can feel almost impossible to do anything on these off days, but even 5 minutes is better than nothing.

When my mood is super low, I'll take a nap. Probably not the best coping mechanism but when I wake up sometimes I feel a bit better.

I hope you find yourself enjoying activities again soon.

[Wild Coyote]

Scaredandconfused gave some great advice, as per usual.

Is this the apathy of depression, even though you don't feel especially depressed?

Might you be a bit overly medicated, causing some "numbness" and apathy?

I find it tough, and rare, to feel motivated. I feel like a sloth and it affects my self-esteem a lot. I am trying to work on this -- it's a current priority. You are definitely not alone.

I hope you can get to the bottom of this and can turn it around to your satisfaction. In the meantime, treat yourself with compassion.


WC