I was on a forum and one of the mods mentioned me in one of his posts. He basically was trying to be all high and mighty and said the issue I was having..

Anyway, I called him "numb nuts" and he deleted my post and sent me a warning.

I tried to tell him that I basically treat everyone the same regardless of social status.

Now. This is not the first time this has happened I've even been banned from forums and at Flame Wars but this time this particular time it has bothered me and I feel really bad about it what should I do

[*Laurie*]

Hi, do you feel like you have impulsive anger that gets the better of you or do you feel like you were just stating how you felt, then you feel guilty for asserting your feelings?

Because if impulsive anger is a problem, that can be a big part of bipolar disorder. But if you are guilty about stating how you feel, that's more of a self-esteem thing. At least, that's how I see it.

Originally Posted by *Laurie*

Hi, do you feel like you have impulsive anger that gets the better of you or do you feel like you were just stating how you felt, then you feel guilty for asserting your feelings?

Because if impulsive anger is a problem, that can be a big part of bipolar disorder. But if you are guilty about stating how you feel, that's more of a self-esteem thing. At least, that's how I see it.

That's a very clear observation that brings me to both I guess.

I'm angry at myself now because I want to be told that it's OK that I messed up and we could still be friends. But this always happens. People always judge me on their first impression, which gives them false data when it comes down to understanding me.

But, I'm just sorry for making him not like me anymore. Future relationships are now ruined again....

Do I need to tell people I'm bipolar? Telling my family was a huge mistake as they all now avoid me, maybe thinking its foe the best, but it just makes me sad.

I hate myself.

MANIC EPISODE everything is fukd

[luvyrself]

Originally Posted by 2ISAB

I was on a forum and one of the mods mentioned me in one of his posts. He basically was trying to be all high and mighty and said the issue I was having..

Anyway, I called him "numb nuts" and he deleted my post and sent me a warning.

I tried to tell him that I basically treat everyone the same regardless of social status.

Now. This is not the first time this has happened I've even been banned from forums and at Flame Wars but this time this particular time it has bothered me and I feel really bad about it what should I do

—you could take anger management classes, have your pdoc adjust yr meds for a hypomania episode, apologize if you were wrong, over the top, whatever. Remember u can get your way more being tactful, even if someone was out of line.

[leomama]

Ask yourself if that forum is worth the trouble. Generally for me mods getting involved means taking a step back. If I know my intent was good and someone else misinterpreted it then that is not a safe place. Calling someone a name means you felt threatened. Can you be more detailed about the argument?

Originally Posted by leomama

Ask yourself if that forum is worth the trouble. Generally for me mods getting involved means taking a step back. If I know my intent was good and someone else misinterpreted it then that is not a safe place. Calling someone a name means you felt threatened. Can you be more detailed about the argument?

It turns out that I have become delusional. I thought he was out to get me. But he did tell me to stop sending him messages (I sent 3) so I feel so confused.

I now have a "hangover" feeling from all that happened last night. I even got to the point where I thought he would access my other accounts so I frantically changed the passwords. I was so close to attempting suicide again, the episode was very intense that reminds me of when I use to drink.

Going through oxycodone withdrawals doesn't help...

If I can't get through this, there's no point anymore.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by 2ISAB

It turns out that I have become delusional. I thought he was out to get me. But he did tell me to stop sending him messages (I sent 3) so I feel so confused.

I now have a "hangover" feeling from all that happened last night. I even got to the point where I thought he would access my other accounts so I frantically changed the passwords. I was so close to attempting suicide again, the episode was very intense that reminds me of when I use to drink.

Going through oxycodone withdrawals doesn't help...

If I can't get through this, there's no point anymore.

Sounds like you need to be hospitalized?

[Northchild]

^ that, or

...at least go to the doctor for evaluation.

[bizi]

What are you taking to treat the mania?
Can you go see your pdoc?
Do you have friends to help keep an eye on you?
bizi

Originally Posted by Northchild

^ that, or

...at least go to the doctor for evaluation.

Thanks, I've made necessary arrangements to get another evaluation.

Originally Posted by bizi

What are you taking to treat the mania?
Can you go see your pdoc?
Do you have friends to help keep an eye on you?
bizi

Nothing. I use to take Zyprexa. My own sisters won't return my messages. My doctor abandoned me when I needed him most. I was contemplating suicide all day, looks like its going to be the deep web for help in that or I'm gonna set myself on fire.

Originally Posted by leomama

Sounds like you need to be hospitalized?

I tried, they sent me away. Honestly. I cried so much... not even the place that got me on oxy doesn't want anything to do with me.

[leomama]

The er? Community mental health?

[bizi]

So sorry that you are not getting the help that you desperately need. I don't understand how the hospital turned you away. Did you tell them that you were suicidal?
sorry it is so hard right now.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[Wild Coyote]

I am very sorry you are having a rough time.

Please go to the ER if you need help.

Please keep yourself safe.


WC