[SorryShaped]

I just want to hear someone else's voice. I don't have anyone to call or go to. Loneliness hurts so bad! Add to it the terrible weather and feeling alone. This is usually where I start the downward spiral but I'm just kind of stuck there today. I've been on my Facebook. I'm messaging with people, but the lack of voices of others to interact with. It hurts. I don't even know if I'd be able to answer the phone if it rang. I want to sleep but can't fall asleep

[boogiesmash]

Hey man I hear you. Hang in there.

I think a lot of us come here wanting company. Some jokes:

[Fuzzybear]

Not sleeping sucks, feeling lonely sucks

Oh my gosh, I’m sorry you’re having a hard time. I hope you’re sleeping, and maybe when you get up you might feel like going to the gym?

It might help to be around people that way.

[Unrigged64072835]

Hi, SorryShaped.

Sorry that you're feeling lonely.

Lots of love and hugs...

[SorryShaped]

I slept last night, and went to the gym this morning but barely spoke to anyone, because everyone is so rushed that time of day. I was and still am in so much physical pain that moving at all is a monumental effort. I may have to stop doing Mondays like I do, where I get a small morning workout, then yoga and in the evening elliptical, Pound class and then yoga. I'm gonna make some popcorn. Maybe that will help. My body is on fire from pain. I just really want somebody to snuggle with

[SorryShaped]

Someone did something wonderful. I'm very appreciative! They sent me a video message.
I've done a terrible food choice however. I ate all 6 of the sundae cones over the course of today. I don't feel guilty about it but I am grateful there weren't more, because I'd have eaten those too. My tummy will probably not be happy about that later on.

I hope your pain subsides a bit this morning Sorryshaped. I am going to a chronic pain management class later today. If I learn any good tips, I'll let your know. So far, they have said how important it is to exercise and not let your pain limit you too much (if you are going to be in pain no matter what you do, don't skip things you love). From experience, I know distractions that I enjoy, getting enough sleep and walking helps.....

[Shazerac]

[SorryShaped]

I got plenty of sleep. However, my neck woke me up at 5 to let me know just how angry it could be. I took some kratom and it is a little better but not great. About to take a shower and go hopefully move furniture. Physically feel like crap today, probably in part because I gobbled all that sugar and dairy yesterday. Oh well. Life goes on.

[Unrigged64072835]

Yeah, sugar crashes are not that much fun. And my husband hates me if I have dairy--I'm lactose intolerant.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Yeah, sugar crashes are not that much fun. And my husband hates me if I have dairy--I'm lactose intolerant.

Most people have problems processing lactose. And yeah, I've been a bit noisy today XD

[Row Jimmy]

Originally Posted by SorryShaped

Someone did something wonderful. I'm very appreciative! They sent me a video message.
I've done a terrible food choice however. I ate all 6 of the sundae cones over the course of today. I don't feel guilty about it but I am grateful there weren't more, because I'd have eaten those too. My tummy will probably not be happy about that later on.

First of all, don't feel guilty about eating those sundae cones. I once ate 4 slices of pizza, 2 plates of pork stir fry, and 7 Hostess Cupcakes in one sitting........and I'm still comfortable with who I am!

Perhaps try getting away from the computer for a bit. I think we all rely a bit too much on technology. Someone mentioned the gym. Also, you might think about putting together a list of errands - stay out for four hours and motor around town, getting things done and checking them off the list. You'll interact with all sorts of people. Get a few recipes together and go to the supermarket - buy your ingredients and hit the kitchen. Give yourself something to achieve, it will relieve some of the stress.

Good luck, Brother Sorry Shaped.

[boogiesmash]

Hey man how you feeling tonight?

[smartin]

We have all been there, and we're an open ear if you need someone to talk to.

[RainyDay107]

Have you thought of joining a local bipolar support group? I made friends that way. Or a club of some sort, for example ... search meetup dot com for “book club” in your area?

I’ve noticed it’s much harder to make friends since I finished school and became disabled. I no longer was seeing the same groups of people nearly every day. Add the diagnosis and it’s harder. That’s why I recommended the support group and I have found them super helpful.

Hang in there.

[SorryShaped]

Been a member of a few clubs but I really just lost interest. I was too tired to move yesterday, after morning yoga and just slept it out.
Been up since 5:30 AM today, when the pain said that my sleep time was ended.
Today has been wild. I was talking with D, a female I'm now obviously still hopelessly desirous of, even though I thought I wasn't. She just draws me in by being her and doesn't even know she's doing it. She wasn't flirting at all. It's her telling her stories. I want to hear them all. I brought a laptop she's never seen work before home with me and will be returning it to her, hopefully in working condition. I was there for hours and it felt like fifteen minutes. During this time, two other ladies were messaging me, both friends, but still. One of those two is a very new friend and difficult to keep up with and super-strange and interesting. The other has been a friend longer and we message so regularly sometimes I wish she had been my wife so I'd have had someone that attentive. I sometimes went days while married and she never spoke more than to fuss about work, at me, not to.
That probably all came out all wrong and at least one of them stands a chance at seeing this. Oh well, full disclosure anyways

[SorryShaped]

I did find some support groups but I'd have to drive 20+ miles each way. My truck barely makes it five miles at this point, burning a gallon to do so. It's on its last leg already. I have no idea what's wrong with it other than maybe a blown head or busted throttle body. It's a 94 Chevy so that throttle body is VERY expensive. The heads are cheaper but being I am broke, dunno what's going to happen.