This is seemingly an ongoing thing, or maybe I'm just happy in my life. I do feel in control but only just. I am in a state of like with someone, sizeably, and it was boosted by my recently meeting her physically. There's some traveling involved to meeting up again and no definite plans. Sex did not happen on the first meeting, only because of being in public, but it was discussed and we both wanted and still want to. There's one thing she does that I find repulsive, smoking, but it doesn't trigger my PTSD any more, at least not her smoking. It also doesn't taste bad on her lips or tongue but it did on another woman that I found out was cheating at the time. Weird?
My money situation is beyond rancid but it will eventually even out, I hope.
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