I swear everyone wants me to nuts from not sleeping. My sense is whacked too. Everything sounds a different pitch and nothing looks the same if I look away and look back. People are screwing with me. I'm overwhelmed.

Originally Posted by spikes

I swear everyone wants me to nuts from not sleeping. My sense is whacked too. Everything sounds a different pitch and nothing looks the same if I look away and look back. People are screwing with me. I'm overwhelmed.

I know you've had issues trying to get in with a psychiatrist, but you could try the hospital for a faster response. Just explain that you have no one to help you and that you need someone's help.

I was in that situation before and it sucked. Two months without a pdoc. I reached out to my therapist and she made things happen for me (pdoc wise). She also taught me coping mechanisms for dealing with my symptoms, which was super helpful

[Sunflower123]

Sending hugs to all those that are struggling.

The actual process of getting ready for vacation is stressful and exhausting to me. I am grateful that I have this opportunity. Having said that, getting there is a big struggle and I want to crawl back into bed

[Scooter9]

I spent part of yesterday in bed because I was feeling so low. Nothing to do except sleep it off. It was not a good day. Just the second day on my newly increased dose of Lithium...probably a couple of weeks away from knowing whether it makes a difference.

[Tucson]

I am here. Today I will not be doing much. I may take a leasurely walk around my townhome complex. I met someone online who is very interesting to me. She has accomplish allot so far in her life. I will see if we can meet up for coffee. I have not dated in close to twenty years.

[zijax]

Started Lamictal yesterday. I had a panic attack today in the head shop where my fiance was buying super green Kratum. There were 15 people in line and my heart was racing, palms sweating...I felt like a clikity clackity skeleton with no muscle or skin or organs. Now I am home after the busy morning of running errends...had to replace my battery and such. I took half a xanax and feel ok now.

[Unrigged64072835]

Meals planned and groceries bought. Bills paid. Ordered filters for the air cleaners.

My husband is back on MS meds and he's feeling pretty bad. Neither of us slept well last night. He's taking a nap at the moment. I wish I could but akathisia is keeping me up.

My daughter and I figured out what chairs and dining table they'll need for the apartment. Actually saved some money on that deal.

Clinic called back. They're full until June 18th, so I'll keep my appointment for the 14th. I really wish I didn't have to use them, but I can't afford to pay more in health insurance. I see the dentist on Monday so will know if there's anything on that front, but I don't think there will be.

I'm going to take a shower and then post for a little bit.

Hugs for those who want them.

[wildflowerchild25]

Son is much better today. No fever and actually ate a lot of food. Making up for yesterday when he ate nothing. I’m glad he’s better, I hate when he’s sick.

I did take a four hour nap again today and I felt horrible about it. Yet I can’t seem to stop myself. I just don’t want to be awake. I don’t know if it’s depression or what. I guess I just have to push myself to stay out of bed. Like make myself stay up for a specific amount of time and THEN I can take a nap. Or something like that.

I need a job is what I need. I wish I hadn’t lost my summer job last year. God damn bipolar meds making me fall asleep.

[wildflowerchild25]

By the way - I’m super excited because I’ve lost almost ten pounds from my heaviest weight back in January. It’s taken a long time because I’ve gone up and down but I’ve been on a steady downward trend since I got out of IP. I’ve finally broken the bingeing on the weekends cycle. I’m just not as hungry. I thank haldol for that.

Slow and steady wins the race!

[Cocosurviving]

My youngest daughter made it back from her week long trip. She said did not enjoy the trip because of her dad’s wife. My oldest daughter was out my place when her sister retuned home.
The three of us went to the zoo.

[Wild Coyote]

After several years of ALL of my doctors -- including pdoc, primary care, neurology and rheumatology -- prodding me to do a trial of medical marijuana, I have finally decided to give it a try. I have had several false starts on a trial, rapidly quitting just after starting.

I have completed 3 weeks now.

The jury is still out.
I definitely notice less pain, less spasticity, less anxiety, stable mood, less depressed, better sleep, much less C-PTSD stuff going on. I have decreased pain meds by 50% already.

Only time will tell.

Love to All!


WC

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

After several years of ALL of my doctors -- including pdoc, primary care, neurology and rheumatology -- prodding me to do a trial of medical marijuana, I have finally decided to give it a try. I have had several false starts on a trial, rapidly quitting just after starting.

I have completed 3 weeks now.

The jury is still out.
I definitely notice less pain, less spasticity, less anxiety, stable mood, less depressed, better sleep, much less C-PTSD stuff going on. I have decreased pain meds by 50% already.

Only time will tell.

Love to All!


WC

That's awesome!

I hope the marijuana continues to work for you.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing fine but still tired. I am washing my clothes now and vacuumed my apartment. I also prepared for my classes until Wednesday. I feel ok. I'm meeting my boyfriend tomorrow and will hang out with him for awhile. I am trying to learn Japanese but am too tired to study daily. I go to work to places that are about an hour away and returning home is another chore in itself. I travel a lot. I think this is making me tired. Also, the weather is humid here.


My mother is not doing well. She hit her head on the hard floor and has not seen the doctor yet. Her appointment is in three weeks. I hope she sees the doctor sooner by going to the emergency room. I am very worried about her.

I continue to survive and am grateful for what I have and my life. I have made some contacts to whom I write about my illness and read about their illnesses. I try to be supportive and understanding. I commiserate with them.


My boyfriend is ok. He works a lot. He is nice and helpful. He also understands me and tries to be supportive about my illness and situation. Fortunately, he has no illnesses so far. He is lucky but he watches his health and weight carefully.


I hope that those who are suffering will overcome and find hope.

I've been avoiding the grocery store for far too long. Going there is just boring to me and really stressful, so I'm not particularly interested in going. But of course I do need to eat food to live, and I've been surviving on takeout, which I NEVER do. If only I had gone to grocery store earlier and saved all that takeout money...

*sigh*

Going there in about 30 minutes. It's going to kill me... but at least I'll get fresh air in the process.

I've planned some meals out already, so I think I'm good to go. I'm going to buy the corresponding ingredients. Wish me luck... because I'm sure going to need it!

I'm still here.

[hopeless2015]

Husband and I are headed to St Louis for a ball game and overnight stay. Should be a good time. I'm pretty excited.

HUGS to everyone!!!!

[Faltering]

I think the worst of my psychosis is gone, but now I've developed quite a bad sinus infection.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

After several years of ALL of my doctors -- including pdoc, primary care, neurology and rheumatology -- prodding me to do a trial of medical marijuana, I have finally decided to give it a try. I have had several false starts on a trial, rapidly quitting just after starting.

I have completed 3 weeks now.

The jury is still out.
I definitely notice less pain, less spasticity, less anxiety, stable mood, less depressed, better sleep, much less C-PTSD stuff going on. I have decreased pain meds by 50% already.

Only time will tell.

Love to All!


WC

That’s great news!!! I hope it works out.

[Blueberrybook]

I don't know what is up with me. I thought taking iron supplements was helping with my fatigue since yesterday was the first day in my memory for at least a month I didn't nap. I had recent blood tests showing I had extremely low iron (and this was in the middle of my menstrual cycle, like 2 weeks in, so I should have recovered from the iron loss due to bleeding.) Unfortunately, the best iron rich foods are liver, and my family hates that and I'm no good at cooking it. Only one of my grandmothers used to make good liver and onions, and she's passed away, so I can't get the recipe from her. But last night, OMG, I slept over 12 hours! Don't know what is up with that. I had been sleeping around 6.5 hr. per night before that. I feel like a truck ran me over this morning. My daughter just got up at 9 AM, maybe something is going around. Hubby is still asleep, but he has been having sinus issues and been overworked with the end of school especially since they put him on graduation duty. Plus, the heat of summer is already here. Sigh...I wanted to walk this morning, but now it's gotten sunny and warm. I like best to walk near dawn because it is cooler. Also, does anyone have psych meds that say you should stay out of the heat? It seems to me I have several unless 2 of those are the meds for fibromyalgia. Walking in the heat flares up the fibro anyway. I wish it would rain. I love the rain and could use a good summer morning reading a mystery inside while it rains outside. It hasn't rained here much lately, and usually, this is an area that gets a lot of afternoon rain in the late spring/early summer.

My daughter is already bored with school being out, and it's only been a week! Ugh! I'm going to have to arrange a playdate with one of her friends. Even though my daughter is very introverted, her 2 best friends are extreme extroverts, so it can be a lot to put up with. The one friend lost her dad suddenly a couple years ago to an aneurysm, so I hate to have to put the burden of watching my daughter on the mom. Her mother is a teacher though, so they should be home if they do not vacation this summer. I am going to check out some vacation Bible schools for my daughter, though they tend to meet in the evenings, not during the day.

[Sunflower123]

Really exhausted today and not able to travel due to that and my daughter being sick. We’ll try again tomorrow. The bright side is that there will hopefully be less traffic on the road.

To make things extra special, the air conditioner went out last night. That’s not something you want happening to you here in the South. Fortunately, they are coming Tuesday already for routine maintenance.

Sending hugs to all those that are struggling.

[giddykitty]

Sleep is weird again. I'll wake up after only a few hours and take awhile to settle back down. I wake up so many times in the night, but I finally managed to sleep through the second half this morning (like 3 to 5 hrs). Maybe it's my cycle, maybe it's my version of hypo. I know I'm exercise deprived. Does that make people restless or just me??

Speaking of restless, I really want to read my books work on knitting, all that stuff, but I'm usually too restless. I dunno. Maybe it's something worth mentioning to my pdoc. See her today. Anxious about that, but I'm always anxious. Just anxious I say the right stuff.

[Blueberrybook]

Great. Never nice when your husband tells you that you have gigantic dark circles under your eyes even when wearing makeup. I slept 12 hours last night. Maybe I am just exhausted or getting sick.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Really exhausted today and not able to travel due to that and my daughter being sick. We’ll try again tomorrow. The bright side is that there will hopefully be less traffic on the road.

To make things extra special, the air conditioner went out last night. That’s not something you want happening to you here in the South. Fortunately, they are coming Tuesday already for routine maintenance.

Sending hugs to all those that are struggling.

Hoping you and your daughter recover soon.

It must be humid there. We are in 85% humidity lately.

(((((( Jennifer1967 ))))))

Thinking f you.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I've been avoiding the grocery store for far too long. Going there is just boring to me and really stressful, so I'm not particularly interested in going. But of course I do need to eat food to live, and I've been surviving on takeout, which I NEVER do. If only I had gone to grocery store earlier and saved all that takeout money...

*sigh*

Going there in about 30 minutes. It's going to kill me... but at least I'll get fresh air in the process.

I've planned some meals out already, so I think I'm good to go. I'm going to buy the corresponding ingredients. Wish me luck... because I'm sure going to need it!

I don't like shopping either!

WC

[liveforsummer]

Rough week but felt better last night after talking to hubby about it. Worked hard keeping it all to myself but by yday evening it all came out. Symptoms tolerable today so far. Be interesting to see if they all worsen again on Monday when I’m back at work. I’m hoping not.

WC, I hope this new threatment continues to be therapeutic for you!