[eye2797]

I have been home just a week from being in patient. I wasn't supposed to see my doctor until Friday but I had an appointment with my therapist yesterday.

I told her that I was feeling very disconnected, emotionless and just overall no feelings. I actually contacted her on Memorial Day to ask if she had any appointments available yesterday as this feeling was getting very intense and I didn't like it as I was not feeling connected with those around me and that the things that I was doing I was just going through the motions.

So during the appointment she he called my doctor's office for me and they got me in for an appointment a couple hours after I saw her.
After talking with him he felt like that I was possibly overmedicated and that we would drop 50 mg of Seroquel. In the hospital they had put me on 50 mg in the morning 50 mg in the evening and 200 at bedtime.
Yesterday was the first day of not taking the evening dose. Now I don't know if it's the medicine or me or just getting back into life but I feel down. I was getting some meds out of my Med container and the thought of just taking a whole bottle of them popped into my head, it wasn't like overpowering or anything like that but it just made me think. Am I putting myself on too high of alert or do I just need to relax and not be so hard on myself.
I feel kind of down today but I need to figure this out

[Skeezyks]

I've been hospitalized twice in the past. Both times, when I got home, it was sort-of like being in a fog. I had no one to talk to & nothing to do. The first time around, after a few days of that, I made arrangements to attend a partial hospital program. I don't know as the program itself was of any particular benefit. But it gave me somewhere to go & something to do. And that was helpful. I can't speak to your med situation. But, based on my own experience, I'd have to say what you're experiencing is pretty normal at this point. Hope you begin feeling better soon...

[wildflowerchild25]

I agree with skeezyks - it’s pretty normal to feel disconnected so to speak after an IP stay. I too have always done partial or IOP after all my hospitalization (there were MANY) and it does add some structure to your day. Not sure if you have something like that available to you.

[eye2797]

I think I do have something in my area but it's like an hour away. I have been seeing my therapist often and talking with her whether it be taxed or email. I have a lot of support and family and have been keeping busy so I think that helps some. I see my doctor on Tuesday and we will go from there on how I feel.

[BipolaRNurse]

I think we tend to expect too much from ourselves when we get out of the hospital. But when you think about it, would you expect to be back to normal right away if you'd just had surgery or some medical illness? Of course not. But we too are fragile and need time to recover, just as if we'd had pneumonia. Unfortunately, people just don't get that and they think we can (and should) hit the ground running immediately after IP, and it doesn't work that way. Depression or feeling numb isn't at all uncommon in the early days post-hospital, so please don't get down on yourself for that. Take care, and keep posting here. We're here for you.

[Pookyl]

I’m being discharged in two days. Being home at first makes me feel dazed. Be kind to yourself until you’re in equilibrium.