[Victoria'smom]

So I told my husband that I took 10mg of Zyprexa the night before last and he said nothing. Today I told him I took 2.5 mg last night because of my anxiety. He told me if I’m trying to get off it I shouldn’t be taking it at all. That maybe if I dropped caffeine like I was maybe my anxiety would go down. He didn’t sleep last night. We picked up melatonin so even if he “naps” during the day he can sleep at night. I feel like just throwing the zyprexa away. I haven’t ate yet today and really don’t want to. My husband bought chicken but now he’s reading books with my nephew and the chicken is going to get soggy and greasy. Then I really won’t want it. I know he’s throwing little jabs at me but I’m probably doing it too. I’m ****ing up. I don’t know whether I’m up, down or just okay. I want this crushing in my chest to go away. I can get it to go away using self harm but then I’m admitting defeat. Honestly if I start I’m not 100% sure I’d stop. I cried today. I’m hoping everything mellows out soon. So what does everyone do when their significant others are not supportive? I really feel I don’t deserve to live.

7:30 I ate a little and had milk

I am sorry you are feeling unsupported

I am single, so can't really comment on the significant other thing- but I know being unsupported sucks, most people in my life are like that- especially family

[bpforever1]

I feel your pain and suffering and also had an ex- who truly did not care one iota about me. I can say, at least, your partner cares about you although his comments may not be welcomed. There is hope. I would not tell him all that you do and just do it if necessary. He can't live for you and you can't live for him. Thus, if you need your medication, then take it. And, if you are trying to taper off, please do so with the consultation from your doctor. I understand your frustration and anger. However, your partner cares and probably thinks his advice is helpful to you. And, if you don't think he can offer any good advice about your medication, then don't tell him about it nor ask his advice. You should take care of yourself as a priority. Then, you will be able to take care of others too. Best wishes!

[BipolaRNurse]

This is NOT good. Not good at all. Your husband is not qualified to give you advice about your treatment. Nothing good ever comes of you going off your meds. You know that and yet you choose to ignore it. I'm sorry he's not being supportive, but you need to take care of YOU.

[Victoria'smom]

I don't think I'll tell him anymore, even when I feel guilty for taking it.