[diamondprincess]

I've heard people say this to me in the past and I remember thinking it was odd, but I have come to be the same way. When I first starting having my symptoms, I cried all the time and sometimes I still do, but not as much. Sometimes when things happen I am surprised I don't cry. I think because I did so much in the past and I realized that life will never be perfect (well for me at least) I stopped caring about some of the things I used to. I used to be super emotionally invested in certain things and now I am not as much. I think my BP helped me grow in some ways and I don't complain about certain things I used to and started being more grateful I guess. Maybe there is hope for me yet? Lol

I don't cry much at all about my bipolar disorder, unless it's really bad and a type of episode where I can no longer maintain my "tight fists". Obviously I do cry when I mourn certain major losses (my mom, nephew, career job), but not all. I sometimes wish I could cry more when in pain. Often I become agitated to an extreme. Crying seems to me a healthier release.

Oddly, I cry most at certain movies. I can't tell you how much I cried at the end of the movie "Amadeus". Also, my husband recently took me to see the Mr. Rogers documentary. I cried throughout the entire thing. Really, the entire thing. I was not the only person crying there. Mr. Rogers was such an exceptionally wonderful man. Even my husband cried a bit and he didn't grow up with Mr. Rogers, being a European.

I'm actually relieved that Mr. Rogers is no longer with us. After 9-11 he grew so depressed with what had happened, like many of us did. These current times are almost equally distressing in many ways. It's rare to find such a sympathetic, gentle, truly caring person. My husband is that way with me, in particular. My husband is also a sensitive soul.

[SorryShaped]

I let each moment take me as it should. If I cry, so be it.

I cry easily. I feel so intensely with my BPD that I get overwhelmed. I cry if I'm really hurt, angry, anxious or happy. Well basically anytime im emotionally overwhelmed.

The last time someone really hurt me, about 3 years ago, I went into full scale meltdown mode. A couple friends took me to a pub. I cried for like 2 hours while drinking myself into an oblivion. So I'm not even shy about it. Lol.

[diamondprincess]

Originally Posted by TheSadGirl2

I cry easily. I feel so intensely with my BPD that I get overwhelmed. I cry if I'm really hurt, angry, anxious or happy. Well basically anytime im emotionally overwhelmed.

The last time someone really hurt me, about 3 years ago, I went into full scale meltdown mode. A couple friends took me to a pub. I cried for like 2 hours while drinking myself into an oblivion. So I'm not even shy about it. Lol.

It seems like you have good people in your life. Thats good

[diamondprincess]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I don't cry much at all about my bipolar disorder, unless it's really bad and a type of episode where I can no longer maintain my "tight fists". Obviously I do cry when I mourn certain major losses (my mom, nephew, career job), but not all. I sometimes wish I could cry more when in pain. Often I become agitated to an extreme. Crying seems to me a healthier release.

Oddly, I cry most at certain movies. I can't tell you how much I cried at the end of the movie "Amadeus". Also, my husband recently took me to see the Mr. Rogers documentary. I cried throughout the entire thing. Really, the entire thing. I was not the only person crying there. Mr. Rogers was such an exceptionally wonderful man. Even my husband cried a bit and he didn't grow up with Mr. Rogers, being a European.

I'm actually relieved that Mr. Rogers is no longer with us. After 9-11 he grew so depressed with what had happened, like many of us did. These current times are almost equally distressing in many ways. It's rare to find such a sympathetic, gentle, truly caring person. My husband is that way with me, in particular. My husband is also a sensitive soul.

Maybe I should watch the movie. Sometimes I like to watch things that make me cry so I can let my emotions out.

[Nix]

Sometimes I feel like if I could just cry I would feel better, but I can't get myself to cry. I actually like the occasions where I end up sobbing because it's a release.

I cry a little easily.

very emotional

[diamondprincess]

Originally Posted by Nix

Sometimes I feel like if I could just cry I would feel better, but I can't get myself to cry. I actually like the occasions where I end up sobbing because it's a release.

Yeah I am the same way. You have to watch something sad to cry.

diamondprincess, it is a highly recommended documentary! Do you remember Mr. Rogers? Though he was an ordained minister, he never preached religion. He only talked about being loving and kind, including to yourself. Some of what his puppets said (he voiced them all) was intensely significant. He was very interested in psychology and incorporated those learnings into his interactions with children and even adults.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Oddly, I cry most at certain movies. I can't tell you how much I cried at the end of the movie "Amadeus".

I watched Amadeus when I was in middle school music class. I think the extended version is rated R, but the regular version is PG. I probably watched the PG version, then. Which version are you talking about? I don't remember crying... but it could be because I watched the PG version.

But I watched this movie back in... uh... 2000 something. Like 2003?

[diamondprincess]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

diamondprincess, it is a highly recommended documentary! Do you remember Mr. Rogers? Though he was an ordained minister, he never preached religion. He only talked about being loving and kind, including to yourself. Some of what his puppets said (he voiced them all) was intensely significant. He was very interested in psychology and incorporated those learnings into his interactions with children and even adults.

Yeah I watched him growing up. I didn't know all the stuff you mentioned about him though.

I mostly cried at the very end of the movie "Amadeus" when Mozart was struggling to finish his requiem mass before dying. I am a huge fan of classical music and other arts. Perhaps I was so strongly touched partly because of the intense beauty of his music and the fact that such a creator had his life taken in such a way so prematurely. There are other personal things that I could relate to. Mozart struggled a lot of the time to be recognized sufficiently. He struggled with depression at the end of his life. I saw it first when I was about 16 when it first came out. My bipolar disorder started at about 14/15. By 16 I had gone through a very distressing period.

[UpDownAround]

I am an awkward crier. I am not upset about things others are and cry for no reason or because of things that don't affect others as much.

[*Laurie*]

I do cry sometimes, but rarely. I figure, what's the point? I cry and things are still the same afterwards. Better to use my energy to effect change. (My perspective might not be healthy.)

[wildflowerchild25]

I rarely cry. I cried a lot after my husband died (understandable) but only for a few months, then I shut it down. I don’t cry over him anymore. The last time I felt I was going to was at his grave this past Memorial Day and I just shut down so I wouldn’t cry. Otherwise when I am depressed I feel more dead inside rather than sad so I don’t cry. Usually it’s not until I end up IP, then I cry for the first couple of days that I’m there because I’m so frustrated that I ended up back in the hospital AGAIN.

[RainyDay107]

No. I’m crying right now. I only cry due to emotional pain. Never physical chronic pain. And my tears are typically silent.

I just get steady tears rolling down my face. I remember when I was still practicing law, I was really struggling and I’d come home from work. I had several times where I cried for hours. It wouldn’t stop. Like eight hours.

[Tucson]

I rarely cry. When my daughter decided to move in with her mother, I was upset. She would not even talk to me. She took all of her stuff and left nothing behind. Her mother and her mothers friend helped without even talking to me. She told me that her mother knows how to raise her. She was obviously very upset, but passive aggressive behavior can have quite an effect on me. I felt that I lost my daughter. On a different day, I visited her. She wanted me out of her life. She got a real talking to then.

When I was sitting by myself at home in front of a TV, I felt pain like I have never experienced before, which is saying something. I felt my life just completely fell apart. I was so so sad. I felt really alone, visualizing the end of my relationship with her. This is when I cried. I rarely do. It was a very dark day for me in my life. I did not feel anywhere close to this kind of pain when my mother passed away.