[Moose72]

Blueberry, I get that way sometimes too. Indeed I have a friend who drives for a living and ive heard much worse from him while working.

[~Christina]

Still staying with great friends in North Florida. There 4 horses are coming Tuesday so happy for them.

Not sure when we are heading home. Been here since Sunday

My pain is terrible, I wasn’t able to help them finish the fencing.

Fibromyalgia really is a life changing illness.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Still staying with great friends in North Florida. There 4 horses are coming Tuesday so happy for them.

Not sure when we are heading home. Been here since Sunday

My pain is terrible, I wasn’t able to help them finish the fencing.

Fibromyalgia really is a life changing illness.

Sorry about the fibro. I have that too, and it is flaring now, I'm sure from mostly from stress as stress has never once helped fibro or any of my mental conditions. At it is yet another disease no one can see from the outside. I can't even take the fibro meds that helped me the most because of them either being or containing NSAIDs. So I'm left with gabapentin as the rheumatologist is not going to prescribe me Cymbalta, which actually did help me the first year I took it, not just with fibro, but with my mood too. Though, I started Cymbalta about 6 weeks postpartum, and that first year was so soon after my daughter was born (another very stressful time, if you have a baby with colic who gets a tooth before she turns 3 months old). But my hormones where all wacky; I don't think I even got a period again until 9 months later, and from my medical records, it looked like at about 6 months postpartum my old pdoc was thinking I was bipolar, probably bipolar II but then she had bipollar II? as her diagnosis until I had a horrific manic spell in her office & waiting room, and that pretty much changed her mind to bipolar I.

Coming off of Cymbalta was very, very painful. The fibro let me know it, head to to.

[wildflowerchild25]

My back pain has been managed all day with ibuprofen. Unfortunately I started to have stomach pain from the ibuprofen. So I’m in a no win situation. Stomach pain or back pain. I’d rather have back pain than a perforated ulcer though. So I guess I’ll just have to call my dr on Monday and see if I can get in with him. This sucks.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Went to lunch with friends and enjoyed myself. Deadline today, so heading to the library to work. Negative and intrusive thoughts are a little worse, and I know it is probably because I am coming up to a rough week of cycle again. I just hope it is not as bad as last time. I feel very apprehensive and have been enjoying a week or so of better regulated emotions and feeling safer and more grounded with myself. I know PMDD is often treated with either birth control or antidepressants, but both of those make me worse so I am not sure how to handle this every month besides riding it out and trying to exercise and things to make it slightly less intense. If anyone has found something that helps, please pass along your thoughts!

Sounds very challenging! I wish I had a good suggestion for you!


WC

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

My back pain has been managed all day with ibuprofen. Unfortunately I started to have stomach pain from the ibuprofen. So I’m in a no win situation. Stomach pain or back pain. I’d rather have back pain than a perforated ulcer though. So I guess I’ll just have to call my dr on Monday and see if I can get in with him. This sucks.

I’m sorry if you’ve repeated this a lot, but I don’t recall — do you know why your back hurts so bad?

I had back issues due to damage from growing up a gymnast. It got really bad in my mid 20s, and I finally couldn’t take it any more and had lumbar fusion surgery. Recovery was difficult and I still have minor lower back pain here and there, but none of it is anything like that constant day to day pain that was impossible to medicate away pre-surgery. IDK that I have anything helpful to add, but I wanted you to know that I GET IT, and I’m really sorry you are dealing with this pain.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Sounds very challenging! I wish I had a good suggestion for you!


WC

I don't have PMDD, but I can't take hormonal birth control. If my moods are hard to deal with now, birth control makes them 100 times worse. I got a non-hormonal IUD (Paragard) after my daughter was born, but that is no help for PMDD. I had the IUD removed to try to have another child, and wouldn't you know? We couldn't get pregnant again. Both of us got tested, and they couldn't find a reason. Secondary infertility. It happens. Maybe it's even something genetic. My maternal grandmother was born during the Great Depression; her parents were sharecroppers, and she was an only child. In those days, it was almost unheard of to have just one child, especially if you were poor.

I got all moody both halfway through my cycle (around ovulation) and then again near the start of my period. I have lately been having 21 day cycles.
Poor H, I'm always on my period, moody with ovulations or having PMS

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

My back pain has been managed all day with ibuprofen. Unfortunately I started to have stomach pain from the ibuprofen. So I’m in a no win situation. Stomach pain or back pain. I’d rather have back pain than a perforated ulcer though. So I guess I’ll just have to call my dr on Monday and see if I can get in with him. This sucks.

Sorry about your back pain. You are right about a perforated ulcer though. The worst of the perforated ulcer is you have so little time to act after the perforation occurs. It is quite painful, so you know when it happens, you just don't know what has happened, which delays people from seeking treatment. I only had my daughter call my husband because I thought maybe it was appendicitis. Everyone in the ER suspected it was my appendix or gall bladder and were quite surprised by the CT results.

I hope you can get in quickly for the back pain. H had to have a back operation, and he was crying and saying he wanted to die the pain was so bad.

no change from how I've been the last few days... emotionally okay, but very unmotivated

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Not good.......up all night with a stomach virus and still sick. My cat, who just finished treatment for 2 infected paws that caused him to need a month of meds and 3 vet visits, has a sore in his mouth and probably needs a vet since I think he is in pain. (ETA: I think he's uncomfortable, not in pain after observing him). My vet has someone on call on weeknights but I'm not sure about weekend days. My mom will have to take him as I can't leave the bathroom. If my vet doesn't have anyone on call the next place that does do emergencies is an hour away.

I hate not knowing what to do and not being able to handle things myself. I'm just overwhelmed.

ETA: He ate without obvious pain and I can give him canned food today so we can go to our vet tomorrow. Hopefully nothing changes from that. I wish he would come sit with me and purr a little.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by IRememberMyFirstBee

I’m sorry if you’ve repeated this a lot, but I don’t recall — do you know why your back hurts so bad?

I had back issues due to damage from growing up a gymnast. It got really bad in my mid 20s, and I finally couldn’t take it any more and had lumbar fusion surgery. Recovery was difficult and I still have minor lower back pain here and there, but none of it is anything like that constant day to day pain that was impossible to medicate away pre-surgery. IDK that I have anything helpful to add, but I wanted you to know that I GET IT, and I’m really sorry you are dealing with this pain.

I have two herniated discs in my lower back. They are pressing on a nerve in my back causing the pain. I’m calling my dr tomorrow to see what he says at this point, whether he recommends repeating the injections or goes straight to surgery. I don’t really want to repeat the injections if the pain is only going to go away for two weeks and then come back worse than before, which is what happened this time.

I'm feeling a little better since I went back on some Ativan, but half of what I had been taking before stopping it. It's a very low dose, but I obviously needed to be weaned off further than just 0.5 mg to 0 mg. Pdoc didn't think I should be having withdrawals, but going back to some (now 0.25 mg) is making a difference. If it's just in my head or some coincidental improvement, so be it.

Yesterday was a relatively nice weather day, today even nicer. Hubby and I plan to go to an apple orchard and pick some apples. My tooth pain has suddenly eased since restarting Ativan. Tonight I will try eating something a little harder. I will try to eat a cider donut from the orchard store because they are the yummiest in the world.

I'm concerned about my dog. He was walking weird this morning but once we got home it stopped. I go down to get my ECT consult tomorrow too, and I'm scared about that. Honestly I've just been a big ball of anxiety lately.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Not good.......up all night with a stomach virus and still sick. My cat, who just finished treatment for 2 infected paws that caused him to need a month of meds and 3 vet visits, has a sore in his mouth and probably needs a vet since I think he is in pain. (ETA: I think he's uncomfortable, not in pain after observing him). My vet has someone on call on weeknights but I'm not sure about weekend days. My mom will have to take him as I can't leave the bathroom. If my vet doesn't have anyone on call the next place that does do emergencies is an hour away.

I hate not knowing what to do and not being able to handle things myself. I'm just overwhelmed.

ETA: He ate without obvious pain and I can give him canned food today so we can go to our vet tomorrow. Hopefully nothing changes from that. I wish he would come sit with me and purr a little.

I am sorry you have been struggling.
GI viruses can be very disheartening!
I hope your cat will be fine.
I do not like feeling overwhelmed either.

I hope you can get some rest and will feel better ASAP.


WC

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by spikes

I go down to get my ECT consult tomorrow too, and I'm scared about that. Honestly I've just been a big ball of anxiety lately.

Spikes, feel free to PM me if you have questions about ECT. I'm a veteran of it and it's in my nature to be a teacher, so I'm more than happy to share information.

Today we're finally going shopping for a new refrigerator after two weeks of living out of an ice chest. When we get home I've got to clean up the house since my in-laws are coming over to have a send-off supper for my son who's leaving for uni this Wednesday.

Feeling pretty good today, for a change!

I feel pretty stupid for not being able to read, but I'm working on it using a combo of my Kindle and audiobooks. I managed to read 10 pages of a book yesterday, although I did forget some of it after I read it, as my short-term memory sucks. I'll have to re-read those pages.

I think meds are really affecting my memory by making me foggy headed. That, or it's a combination of the ADHD. But either way, I think I have the same memory problem as a lot of you guys, so I think you all can relate very much. I feel your pain! Med side effects suck.

[Blueberrybook]

I'm so sorry to read about sick pets. That is always hard to deal with.

Sorry for everyone who is having a down day.

Birdancer, I get you with the benzos. I think if I went down on Klonopin, it would not pretty even if the pdoc temporarily upped something like Buspar, and I don't do well on a higher dosage of propranolol. I'm sure I posted ad nauseum here about my falling issues, which got better once the pdoc lowered the propranolol.

I am so tired this morning. I slept from 9:30 PM to 9:30 AM. You'd think with that much sleep, I'd be feeling great. I hope it is not the start of a depressive episode. On the other hand, I did get a flu shot yesterday, so maybe it is general malaise caused by that.

My mood is so-so. I really, really wanted to go jogging this morning, but I slept too late and left the window before it becomes super hot and horrible to run. That makes the ED thoughts feel terrified I will wake up morbidly obese tomorrow, even though the scale numbers are not good today (as in pdoc & PCP would not be happy with me). So a day off is likely what I need., but daily running has pretty much become an obsession with me. I guess on the plus side, I ran less last week than usual because we had a lot of rain. I really need to throw out the damn scale. It is stupid to tie your self-worth to a number the scale spits out daily. But try telling that to an ED.

I've got a headache and backache, and the fibro is flaring. That could also contribute to my exhaustion and achy body as well as brain fog. I hate fibro too. There are days you just feel you can't do a thing but lie down and slee, you just hurt so much and are so tired and definitely do not want to be touched by anyone.

Still haven't decided my mood, but I think it might be in the irritated category, especially as I am so tired, I can barely type. I was angerier than usual when one of our cats kept getting underfoot, and I feel like I could lose it any moment now.
So please excuse the typos.

God, I hate being mixed.

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Not good.......up all night with a stomach virus and still sick. My cat, who just finished treatment for 2 infected paws that caused him to need a month of meds and 3 vet visits, has a sore in his mouth and probably needs a vet since I think he is in pain. (ETA: I think he's uncomfortable, not in pain after observing him). My vet has someone on call on weeknights but I'm not sure about weekend days. My mom will have to take him as I can't leave the bathroom. If my vet doesn't have anyone on call the next place that does do emergencies is an hour away.

I hate not knowing what to do and not being able to handle things myself. I'm just overwhelmed.

ETA: He ate without obvious pain and I can give him canned food today so we can go to our vet tomorrow. Hopefully nothing changes from that. I wish he would come sit with me and purr a little.

I hope your stomach virus goes away soon and that your cat gets better. That's really nice of your mom to offer to help you out.

I hope it's nothing serious like the norovirus, although the norovirus goes away quickly. Still, I've gotten it plenty of times and I know how awful it is.

[Moose72]

I went to church for choir this morning. Nice to sing a service with the troups again. However, the albs and cassoks we wear were so HOT! I was sweaty. It was like Id gone to judo but without the calorie reduction. (Talk about skipping exercise! Im a lazy butt! But once I get to the Y Im good. Go figure. Well yesterday i was dealing with SH so.....)

[Wild Coyote]

It has been a very busy weekend.

Had met my new PCP on Friday. Also saw my new pdoc then.
I like both of my new docs; yet, still miss my old ones, too!

My mixed episode is not as bad as it can be, thanks to gabapentin and mmj.
I am trying to accept the way they favor mmj. I had never been into mj and haven't known anything about it. I am learning though. I am still awaiting access to the dispensary so I can learn more about my options.

I have had urges to just suddenly express my sense of agitation, esp when in a very stimulating environment. However, I have successfully kept my mouth shut, so far.

Love to All!

WC

[Blueberrybook]

Forgot to cut propranolol in 2 last night and yesterday afternoon. I still have 20 mg tablets from the initial dosage that caused me to fall down a lot. Now I am supped take 10 mg 3 times daily instead of 20 mg, and I am supposed to use a pill cutter to cut 20 mg propranolol int half until I am done with that bottle, and then pdoc will prescribe bottle of lower dose propranolol which hopefully looks different from the generic, so I don't have to mess with that any more. Forgot to use the pill cutter because my pharmacy started handing out 1 mg generic blue Klonopin rather than the green 1 mg clonazepam, and the 20 mg propranolol is the same shade of blue as the generic Klonopin, just a bit thinner. Paying for my mistake this AM with dizziness and trouble focusing my eyes for typing (so please excuse the many typos this post will have).. Will respond to others' posts later.

I am sorry for those of you dealing with pet issues It is hard and scary when a beloved pet turns ill and you just want to help them feel better.

[~Christina]

Awww WC I sure hope you can catch a break, you be far are due one !!!

[~Christina]

So we decided on a date to head home ... Tuesday evening. After the horses get here.

I have to see my T Wednesday, so I’ll be tired but that’s okay , I’m always tired yet buzzed when we get home from this trip

Hope every one is having a good day

[Nammu]

Hope the trip is uneventful.

[Moose72]

Theres been a detector upstairs for weeks and now thetes a white square above my back door! Who the h.ell has been bugging my apartment?!