[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I agree with you. You/your insurance should not have to pay for this bill. someone else had initiated the use of these services.
It's bad enough an investigation was launched.


WC

And I have to tell you this entire experience from start to finish, most especially the CPS case, has been very stressful. I don't know. Do you think this much stress would cause someone with pre-existing mental conditions to get better or worse?

So I'm supposed to pay a lot of money to a place that in turn launched a CPS investigation, and made my life even more stressful?! A place I did not at all go to voluntarily?

The only possible good that came out of this was I got a good CPS caseworker, and I found out there is a practicing therapist 5 minutes away from my house. But none of that comes even close to making up for all the stress, panic, worry, and weight loss this whole thing has caused.

I hope the caseworker hears back from her supervisor soon regarding closing the case and giving me some info on how to cancel that Saturday CPS 4-6 hr. assessment. Just to have that done with.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

The good news is the CPS case is almost closed. Caseworker says she sent it to her supervisor to review. Almost done with that.

H says we are not paying that hospital bill. The police came and got me, gave me no choice but to go. We got there, I told the officer I needed the bathroom. Worker there said it would be another 30 to 45 minutes waiting in the police car. Finally get in, I repeat the bathroom request , officer nearly sends me there, psych ER sends me to sit on a bench. They tell the officer to handcuff me to the bench. I mention again I really, really need the bathroom , officer says it won’t be long. I wait other 30 to 45 minutes for a pdoc to show up who says uncuff me from the bench, I think I had to answer a bunch of intake questions too, THEN I finally get the bathroom.

And I am supposed to pay $1700 for that? It wasn’t my choice, and they didn’t let me use the restroom for ages. It was so uncomfortable. It’s a wonder I.did pee my pants. Will call insurance tomorrow, and if they won’t pay, H says we should threaten with a malpractice suit because really, that put me under a ton of duress. That was God awful uncomfortable.

Yep, asked for the paper to be mailed for the fees to be waived and no. I will ask again tomorrow, what if I sign them with a notary present. I have BP and panic disorders, both considered disabilities. I cannot drive downtown without a 95% chance of a panic attack. H can’t take off work. They are open until 6 and had the gall to suggest H pick daughter up from school p, take her on at least a 1.5 hr drive in rush hour traffic (no fast offs if she needs the bathroom), causing a 3 hr delay before she can start her homework? And even then, it is not 100% he can make the drive and park before they close at 6.

I also agree you should not have to pay that bill. It wasn't your choice, and it's not like they decided you needed to be inpatient and were not able to make choices at that time. The whole thing sounds so frustrating.

[Unrigged64072835]

Been so tired today. Was late to both appointments but it was okay. Sleep doc sent a new prescription for my mask to the supplier and said To come back in six months. Trauma T wants to do two more rounds of EMDR for some stuff I brought up today.

I hardly did anything otherwise except read and put paperwork together for tomorrow.

My head hurts from sinus pressure due to change in barometric pressure. Yeah, I’m fun on planes too.

I hope I feel better tomorrow. So much to do and it’ll be really warm.

Say good night, Gracie.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

My stomach virus is better which is good because it is my mom's birthday and we went out to a really great new Mexican restaurant here in our town. We live where it is really rural and don't have many good restaurants so finding a good one is very exciting.

My cat seems better but still has a sore mouth. I couldn't get him into the vet until tomorrow so we'll undoubtedly have a great time with that. Poor guy. He likes his carrier when it is safely at home and he can sleep it in but really hates the car and the vet's office. We've been to the vet 3 times in the last month so there's no fooling him t this point. Poor guy.

Hoping for a cure for the infections he's had lately.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

My stomach virus is better which is good because it is my mom's birthday and we went out to a really great new Mexican restaurant here in our town. We live where it is really rural and don't have many good restaurants so finding a good one is very exciting.

My cat seems better but still has a sore mouth. I couldn't get him into the vet until tomorrow so we'll undoubtedly have a great time with that. Poor guy. He likes his carrier when it is safely at home and he can sleep it in but really hates the car and the vet's office. We've been to the vet 3 times in the last month so there's no fooling him t this point. Poor guy.

Hoping for a cure for the infections he's had lately.

I am glad you are feeling better!
I hope all goes well for your cat tomorrow.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am having a rough day, with med changes and with sleep deprivation.

Am very down. H is also very down. My illness is bringing him down.


Love to All!



WC

I’m sorry your ya omg such a horrible day. I hope the med change turns the corner for you in a upward turn.

Just hug H more often to help you both feel a bit better. My husband and I do this when times are kicking our butts

Vibes and hugs

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Well my boyfriend got back to me. Apparently his grandma died and that’s why he doesn’t want to talk. I can understand that. But now I’m upset because that’s how my last relationship ended. The guy’s grandma died and he just ghosted me. Now NV and I have been together a lot longer than the other guy and I were so I hope he doesn’t just ghost out on me but I wouldn’t be surprised if this is the end. But I’m just going to give him his space and then see if he still wants to talk to me later.

I agree give him some space.

I hope he just needs time to process, most guys internalize things instead of sharing ...we tend to be open to talking.

Try not to assume the worse

Loads of hugs !!!!

I've been stuck at level eight in a video game and today i got to ten! I got thru level nine on the first try! Level ten is insane tho. Doubt i'll ever beat it. And I found out one of my favorite musicians is doing a solo acoustic tour which i'll go to. I saw him with a band and it was deafening but i think solo acoustic will be fine.

[Pookyl]

Finally my pain level dropped a little, so that I was able to get up out of bed and walk the short 10 min to the physio. That lovely machine with electronic pulses meant that I had a wonderful pain free 3hrs.

difficult night with flashbacks- absolutely no sign of it letting up

pain was bad too

my back was so stiff I thoughtit was dead, nad that's something I never thought i'd say in a sentence

but no... hellish night and depressing day so far

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am having a rough day, with med changes and with sleep deprivation.
Am very down. H is also very down. My illness is bringing him down.

Love to All!

WC

I’m sorry you’re having a rough day. Big hugs and supportive vibes coming your way. I hope things start looking up soon.

I felt really good yesterday afternoon, and feel really good this morning. I think it's just my good ole' "stable really good", though. I slept beautifully last night. Actually, I was dead tired at 9 pm that I didn't even get through my favorite new program. I just told myself to roll over and happily succumb to delightful sleep. It was hard waking up at my usual time.

I'm getting my hair done today. I've decided to go to my old more expensive stylist. My more recent one used to be cheaper, but her rates went up. If I have to pay a lot, I choose my old stylist who did an even better job. I'll have to tell her I was "away on business", or something like that, to explain my absence. Luckily she talks very little, unlike my more recent stylist.

Tomorrow I see my psychiatrist. If I'm still feeling extremely good, I'll have to ground myself. I'd like him to reduce my Seroquel XR a little, but he won't if my smiles are too big or frequent.

[Moose72]

I keep getting zings in my stomach/diaphragm area. Its when I think something that produces anxiety. What is this?

[Nammu]

See T today, telling him this will be the last day as there is no chemistry. I could get as much from talking to a wall as I get from him. Never met a less involved t. Not very evolved either. Oh well, good thing I'm stable, I could use work on relating to humans....but oh well, it is what it is.

Originally Posted by Nammu

See T today, telling him this will be the last day as there is no chemistry. I could get as much from talking to a wall as I get from him. Never met a less involved t. Not very evolved either. Oh well, good thing I'm stable, I could use work on relating to humans....but oh well, it is what it is.

Sorry that you and your T didn't connect. My previous T and I didn't connect because he randomly brought up the topic of masturbation when I said nothing to even cause him to think that.

I said something along the lines of, "My bed is messy because I fell asleep while I was doing something. Now there's crap all over my bed and I have to clean it up." Then he was like, "I need my bed clean so that I can masturbate. I can't have any distractions. So my bed is clean."

He was/is 33, so he wasn't an old, creepy dude. Just immature and dumb.

[Nammu]

Wow....id call that creepy, yuk.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Sorry that you and your T didn't connect. My previous T and I didn't connect because he randomly brought up the topic of masturbation when I said nothing to even cause him to think that.

I said something along the lines of, "My bed is messy because I fell asleep while I was doing something. Now there's crap all over my bed and I have to clean it up." Then he was like, "I need my bed clean so that I can masturbate. I can't have any distractions. So my bed is clean."

He was/is 33, so he wasn't an old, creepy dude. Just immature and dumb.

At his age, he should know better than to say this to a young lady. I agree with Nammu…. creepy.


WC

I just got back from getting my hair done and stopping by the grocery store, which is right nearby. It's been raining cats and dogs at times, but luckily it eased when I needed to get to my car.

I've been particularly upbeat these last 24 hours. I slept a lot, so it's likely not any sign of developing mania, but I was in super talkative mode, telling numerous stories to people, telling some jokes, and talking to strangers in the grocery store. I've been writing a lot, too.

It's interesting to see onself, when doing very well, to be reminded of what you are really like. I feel exuberant. I know that has been a characteristic of mine throughout my life. Though other times I displayed some very negative characteristics.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Sorry that you and your T didn't connect. My previous T and I didn't connect because he randomly brought up the topic of masturbation when I said nothing to even cause him to think that.

I said something along the lines of, "My bed is messy because I fell asleep while I was doing something. Now there's crap all over my bed and I have to clean it up." Then he was like, "I need my bed clean so that I can masturbate. I can't have any distractions. So my bed is clean."

He was/is 33, so he wasn't an old, creepy dude. Just immature and dumb.

Uh BYE Felicia!

[Daonnachd]

I just finished _An Unquiet Mind_. I was disappointed with the second half as it was more about the men in her life than what was going on in her mind.

Unrelated to the book, I’m not feeling well despite having been definitely up for the past week.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I just got back from getting my hair done and stopping by the grocery store, which is right nearby. It's been raining cats and dogs at times, but luckily it eased when I needed to get to my car.

I've been particularly upbeat these last 24 hours. I slept a lot, so it's likely not any sign of developing mania, but I was in super talkative mode, telling numerous stories to people, telling some jokes, and talking to strangers in the grocery store. I've been writing a lot, too.

It's interesting to see onself, when doing very well, to be reminded of what you are really like. I feel exuberant. I know that has been a characteristic of mine throughout my life. Though other times I displayed some very negative characteristics.

I am glad you have had this experience!

When I have good days like the one you've described, I am very happy and very afraid to go to sleep that night because I am afraid of feeling a loss the next day if I do not feel as exuberant.

I was always very popular; yet, inside I feel very depressed and have become very overwhelmed with everyday life; I am relatively reclusive.

I am glad you are having a good day!


WC

[HunnyBunny5]

I just wanted to say hi, I'm a new member and trying to interact with people who get the "world" I live in.

Not yet sure how it all works, last forum I was part of what babycenter with my pregnancies. So bare with me if I end up in a wrong place, don't have the right words, or not fully clued in to it all.

Any tips would be awesome.

[~Christina]

Headed home ! Hate the long trip but will enjoy being back home , I get tired of my suitcase.

Will really miss our friends.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am glad you have had this experience!

When I have good days like the one you've described, I am very happy and very afraid to go to sleep that night because I am afraid of feeling a loss the next day if I do not feel as exuberant.

I was always very popular; yet, inside I feel very depressed and have become very overwhelmed with everyday life; I am relatively reclusive.

I am glad you are having a good day!


WC

WC, I'm sorry you feel that good feelings will inevitably turn bad. Remember that bad feelings also inevitably turn good. When they're good, savor every moment.

Finished my first round of ECT. I feel no different now. I was a little sore when I woke up though. They gave me a questionnaire and I scored very high on BPD symptoms, which isn't the first time that's happened. I'm wondering if I have that too now. Mood wise I'm okay right now, kinda numb as usual.