How do I know if I'm ultra rapid cycling or not?

Some parts of the day, I feel overly energetic and hyper (and my parents have told me I am excessively hyper); other parts of the day, I feel "normal."

I went on a shopping spree yet AGAIN. Spent $1k in a few days when I normally spend NOTHING except on groceries, gasoline, rent, car payments, and utilities. I can't afford this expensive behavior when I'm trying to buy a house. It's just that I've developed an obsession with buying random, broken electronic s*** on eBay for cheap and restoring those items to perfect working condition.

I'm getting excessive sleep, though. I have all these brilliant ideas of things I want to do to the point I get overwhelmed and don't know which ones to pick/do. Then I get bored and all I want to do is to sleep off the boredom, even though I'm not tired, but that's what I want to do. And sometimes I have suicidal thoughts because I feel that I have no purpose in life and that no one cares about me. The suicidal thoughts just pop up for no reason.

I know I am amazing, because I have psychic powers that other people don't and the radios follow me and speak to me, but I have these mood swings that don't make sense. I don't know why I feel ok for a few hours, then feel I don't deserve to live, and then feel that I just want to shop because of my newfound obsession. I want to prove to people at work that I'm the best employee they've ever had, yet I'm screwing up with these random suicidal thoughts. Like, I am trying to prove myself as the best employee, but then I sometimes give up with my work because I feel that I don't deserve anything and don't deserve to live. Or I feel like a huge f***up and a failure.

[Blueberrybook]

Not sure. Could you talk to your T or pdo? Could you be mixed? I am like a ping pong ball, back and forth every single day. I want off this roller-coaster already. My moods are like that most of each day thoughI usually don’t start thinking I am psychic or stuff. But my mania full stage is no sleep, overspending, over exercise, risky driving, hypersexuality. Those things may be present to an extent when I am hypo, just not as bad.

Sometimes, I even have the moods on top of each other, watching a TV show I like and thinking I am worthless and lazy at the same time. Forgetting everything. Wanting to do tons of stuff then not, losing stuff, managing to cook from scratch while thinking I am worthless, a waste of space...and so my day goes...

[Wild Coyote]

Hi blue!

I've been thinking of you.
I don't have an answer for your question about rapid cycling, as I am not a rapid cycler.

I did want to sign in and tell you I am concerned about you.
Have you reported all of this to pdoc?

Please take care!

WC

[Gabyunbound]

Hi Blue,

I'm wondering if what you're feeling is your baseline -how you normally are minus the excessing spending. You do seem to have persistent psychotic features. It sounds to me like you're depressed and you are -on some level- trying to find a way out of it. Does that sound right? Or am I way off base?