Ongoing stressors and relief???

I can’t imagine having such a huge deductible!!!!!!!

What a nonstop stressor

When I win the lotto I will share

I feel like my stressors are lately my health issues it feels like everytime I turn around something is wrong. My heart rate; headaches; and now an ear infection. Why couldn't my anxiety just flare up or something; at least I'm used to anxiety. I feel like an 80 year old women most of the time.

You sure have been going through a struggle healthwise. Hopefully problems will be taken care of soon.

not knowing how I'll get by each day, a month, a year... not knowing what to do with my life to put it short

I know each day sitting eating junkfood and not exercising and not having life goals/ ambitions isn't right (I don't know how it isn't right, but I know it isn't), and only I can fix that- but wait I can't, because their's nothing, absolutely nothing

family and continuing death threats to not only me, but people I know too

finances

the past

death (not actually dying, I'm okay with that part) just.. will it be today?

I would really like to know the day I die if that was ever possible

chronic pain

constantly being on diffrent meds that do **** all for my BP psymptoms and wondering if this is always how it's going to be- just constantly trying stuff and diffrent variations

my body.

I ****ing hate it

I’m sorry that you struggle with so many big things. It’s awful when they all pile up

Maybe set very small attainable goals that you can manage, maybe just write about whatever music your listening to makes you feel ? I know you love music.

Finances and I don't see any relief until tax season. I hope we make it. It is going to be close.

Our kids are grown so we never receive any monies at tax time. We always used that to pay our property taxes it’s hell for use to scrap it together with both of us on disability.

I have no idea how we get by tbh...I know we don’t eat like we should due to lack of finances.

SSDI = poverty

Yet another chronic stressor is chronic pain!


WC

This is going to sound strange, but I inadvertently create more stress for myself. I don't know why but this is what happens:

I begin to start thinking about what I have to do tomorrow. I'm obsessed with schedules, calendars, list. So I go over it in my head, then on to the next day, and so on until I go over every single detail of what I'm going to do each day for like the next two weeks. The I think, wow. That's a lot of stuff, imagine every single thing I'll have to do for the next month, year, etc. I do this repetitively, and I tend to pace back and forth in my studio apartment, which tends to just work me up and make things worse. I panic and get overwhelmed, and it's literally over nothing... lol. It's been a lot better lately. I still do it, but it's not nearly as bad as it was. It was actually creating problems in my life, I wasn't sleeping much, my feet would actually hurt from pacing so much, my hands would be cramped from checking and rechecking lists, I'd have panic attacks, and I'd literally not get things that needed to be done because I was so worried about everything in the future.

Now, my stress comes mainly from symptoms and college. I also stress about my body. I'm a normal weight but have an eating disorder. Sometimes it starts acting up and I get really obsessive, it's better than it was, in some ways at least

For me it's not money that's the stressor it's the lack of money that stresses me out.

Weight gain from meds is also a stressor for me.
Dropped one of the weight gaining meds as per pdoc's permission.
Now I need to engage in a weight loss program of some sort.


WC

Oh yes indeed !!! I hope yours isn’t in raging level

I can relate to so much you have shared .... the constant overthinking and lists ??? Omg yes.

Hope your can settle down a bit , you don’t want a permanent depression in your floor

Yes .... this

Big Pharma makes psych meds that create weight gain and other disease(s) just to get us to take more drugs. Makes me violent thinking about it.

When you find some type of exercise you and I can both handle with Fibro , chronic fatigue and PsA let me know I’ll be right there

That's the question, isn't it?
I am sorry we both suffer these multiple conditions.
If I find an answer, I will let you know!

WC

people commenting on my weight/ other features

I don't like it, I'd rather people walk past then point out what's wrong with my body

I don't see my weight an issue, I'm not ashamed by it, just ashamed by my body

also people coming up to me and going " you look beautiful today!". I know I don't, I know. could you please just leave me alone

running out of an essential

always making sure I have the same amounts of everything in the house, an I have enough to keep me going is a lot to handle

stigma.

grrr is all

I hate when someone comments on my weight; it makes me very angry. I was wearing a maxi dress in the summer shortly after Zyprexa turned me into a rhino and my boss was like you are pregnant. Then a patient the other day asked when I was due because my shirt was a little tight in that area.

I don't see my weight as much of an issue either I know I'm overweight by a lot but it refuses to budge no matter how much yoga and swimming I do.

Eh if people say I look nice I usually say thanks and move along that doesn't offend me; asking if I pregnant turns me into a rage quicker than anything.

It helps me to know the term for circular thinking is ruminating, and to try to stop myself when i am doing this. Ruminatingis thinking the same negative thoughts about a subject over and over without moving forward or putting the subject on the shelf for later consideration.
I try to break this pattern by leaving the house to run an errand, working on a project, watching a good movie, taking a walk, whatever. Hugs!

Sending hugs to everyone

I've had, " is their a baby in their?"

but no one use the term pregnant directly

I don't understand why they don't

I mean.. sure I don't want them to say it, that's not my point

my point is what's wrong with the term pregnant?

it's a perfectly good acceptible term to describe a woman carrying a baby

if you're going to make remarks and comments, then don't be afraid to use the correct terminology- asking if their's a baby in my tummy is just as insulting than asking if I'm pregnant (if not more)

it's something a child might say... mummy mummy, is their a baby in your tummy?

not an adult. come on guys