[Crook32]

Some of you know about the issues I am having at work. They are micromanaging me so much it is killing me. My suicidal urges keep climbing. Everyday they get stronger. Then yesterday I got notice of no raise for the second year in a row. It is complete BS. They just want me to quit. I am having trouble finding a new job. I was so desperate I applied to Target today. This is not how I pictured my life. I always thought I would retire from here. Everything just feels like it is spinning out of control.

[Victoria'smom]

What is your degree in and what level?

[Travelinglady]

Maybe you can ask around to see if other people got raises. We don't know for sure that they are trying to run you off. Perhaps you can ask your boss what you can do to be even more effective or such. His/her answer might tell you a lot.

I like Target, by the way. I don't think it would be a bad place to work.

[Crook32]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

What is your degree in and what level?

BS Physics
MS Materials Science and Engineering

[Crook32]

Originally Posted by Travelinglady

Maybe you can ask around to see if other people got raises. We don't know for sure that they are trying to run you off. Perhaps you can ask your boss what you can do to be even more effective or such. His/her answer might tell you a lot.


I like Target, by the way. I don't think it would be a bad place to work.

I know almost everyone got a raise. They are making me meet with my boss every week and she has to be cc: on every email. I am being micromanaged to death. My review said my we was very meticulous but they still have me a bad review.

When you have a job that makes you miserable, it's almost impossible to focus on anything else. I would do only what is absolutely required of you. Try to mentally leave work at the door when you go home. Apply anywhere and everywhere that will suit you. Try not to get discouraged as Christmas time is a hard time for job hunting.

That is my mature advice. The last time I was in your situation I quit and walked out one day. So I definitely understand.

[Blueberrybook]

I'm so sorry. I've tried working so many times, and I just can't. I end up miserable and depressed. The last job I had dealt with using mice for research (my graduate work dealt with E. coli and other bacteria, not mice at all). I just could not sex these baby mice, and if you don't wean them from the mother within a certain time period and separate the males & females, the babies start reproducing. And of course, if you sex them incorrectly and put baby males & females in the same cage, they will reproduce. I was to the point I had actual nightmares about mice reproducing out of control. I nearly ended up in the hospital.

Now I'm a homemaker, a stay-at-home mom, I guess, but my daughter is 11 now. She still does need parenting, but she's more self reliant now and it's almost like I should be doing something more with my life, but I just can't hold down a job. I have a B.S. in Microbiology & an M.S. in Cell & Molecular Biology. Just a tip...I have tried applying at places like Target, and it seems like they count you as over-qualified if you have an M.S., maybe a B.S. too for all I know, so you may not want to list it on an application. Maybe listing the M.S. does not screen you out, but I felt like it did for me.

[tecomsin]

These situations rarely turn out well for the employee unfortunately. On one of your threads, you wrote that both your pdoc and T want you to leave. I am very sorry you are going through this. I was once in a similar situation that dragged on for years and did a number on my health. I ended up going on disability and not working at all. I hope you get a better outcome and are able to get out of that situation soon. Maybe work at Target and look for a job in your field.

[Crook32]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

These situations rarely turn out well for the employee unfortunately. On one of your threads, you wrote that both your pdoc and T want you to leave. I am very sorry you are going through this. I was once in a similar situation that dragged on for years and did a number on my health. I ended up going on disability and not working at all. I hope you get a better outcome and are able to get out of that situation soon. Maybe work at Target and look for a job in your field.

T and pdoc have talked about disability. A couple years ago when I was in and out of the hospital my T told me I kept going back too soon when I really wasn’t ready to work. She says that could be part of what is going on now.

[tecomsin]

I was following a return to work 'plan' and did whatever my employer determined. Maybe one option is to go on disability and look for work in the meantime?

[Victoria'smom]

BS Physics
MS Materials Science and Engineering Can you teach English to kids through the internet? It requires 4 am mornings and A BS degree.

[Crook32]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

BS Physics

MS Materials Science and Engineering Can you teach English to kids through the internet? It requires 4 am mornings and A BS degree.

No I hated English and language arts in general in school. Just recently we were having trouble with our 4th graders homework.

[Blueberrybook]

It wouldn't pay a lot, but if you've got a community college (2 year) nearby, you can adjunct teach with an M.S.

I don't know what state you are in, but Texas has a program where if you want to teach in STEM subjects, you can train to teach school while doing your student teaching & training the first year with pay. (I am not sure if this is only after your unemployment runs out or not, but there are districts where you can take the classes in person and then pay back the cost once you are teaching for pay the first year.) They may have even waived the tuition fee for H. H did the certification courses online (occasionally he had to go to the university in person, a bit of a drive as it is on the other side of Houston) though at the end he had to take a computer certification test at a testing facility nearby on the subjects he wanted to be certified to teach in like composite science, math, computer science and for the grade levels, which was like 7th or 8th and above. Those tests were a couple hundred dollars a piece. You just need a B.S. or M.S. H actually did it with a PhD. That's how much trouble he had finding another job after being downsized. His PhD was in Physical Chemistry, B.S. in Chemistry.

I tried to do that teacher program too, but I lasted 2.5 days once the kids came (7th grade life science), and that was it. So much stuff dumped down on me (all the teachers really, not just me) from the administration, I got so overwhelmed, I couldn't take it and ended up depressed and suicidal. Actual teaching is very stressful (much more than the 40 hr/week H is paid for) though it could be less stressful than your current position; I don't know. H found it less stressful than what he had done before though he felt like it was reaching a new low, high school teaching with a PhD. Though in a roundabout way that high school teaching job led to his getting an offer to become a professor at a university (through a summer program at the university for STEM teachers of at risk students).

[Crook32]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

It wouldn't pay a lot, but if you've got a community college (2 year) nearby, you can adjunct teach with an M.S.


I don't know what state you are in, but Texas has a program where if you want to teach in STEM subjects, you can train to teach school while doing your student teaching & training the first year with pay. (I am not sure if this is only after your unemployment runs out or not, but there are districts where you can take the classes in person and then pay back the cost once you are teaching for pay the first year.) They may have even waived the tuition fee for H. H did the certification courses online (occasionally he had to go to the university in person, a bit of a drive as it is on the other side of Houston) though at the end he had to take a computer certification test at a testing facility nearby on the subjects he wanted to be certified to teach in like composite science, math, computer science and for the grade levels, which was like 7th or 8th and above. Those tests were a couple hundred dollars a piece. You just need a B.S. or M.S. H actually did it with a PhD. That's how much trouble he had finding another job after being downsized. His PhD was in Physical Chemistry, B.S. in Chemistry.


I tried to do that teacher program too, but I lasted 2.5 days once the kids came (7th grade life science), and that was it. So much stuff dumped down on me (all the teachers really, not just me) from the administration, I got so overwhelmed, I couldn't take it and ended up depressed and suicidal. Actual teaching is very stressful (much more than the 40 hr/week H is paid for) though it could be less stressful than your current position; I don't know. H found it less stressful than what he had done before though he felt like it was reaching a new low, high school teaching with a PhD. Though in a roundabout way that high school teaching job led to his getting an offer to become a professor at a university (through a summer program at the university for STEM teachers of at risk students).

Thanks for the suggestion but there is no way I could ever teach. I have a huge fear of public speaking.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry this is happening to you, Crook32. If your Pdoc and T think you can apply for disability, I'd definitely try that option, if you want. Please try to hang on a little longer. I hope you'll be able to find a better job soon. I know how you feel. Please don't give up. Sending many hugs to you

Originally Posted by Crook32

Some of you know about the issues I am having at work. They are micromanaging me so much it is killing me. My suicidal urges keep climbing. Everyday they get stronger. Then yesterday I got notice of no raise for the second year in a row. It is complete BS. They just want me to quit. I am having trouble finding a new job. I was so desperate I applied to Target today. This is not how I pictured my life. I always thought I would retire from here. Everything just feels like it is spinning out of control.

life didn't plan out the way I wanted it to either

I never thought i'd be unemployed, with no formal qualifications and no family

but their we go

I hope you'll be okay

(((hugs))))