[jaysmotogp]

This week is a milestone that i'm praying goes well. I've been fairly stable( if you can call it that)for a few months now and so when my wife asked if she could to fly out (out of the country) to visit her 94 year old grandmother, with my 10 year old daughter, i felt confident enough to say sure go for it.
That was three weeks ago and since then i was in the hospital last weekend( non-mental issue) and still getting back on my feet (literally).
But we had paid for the tickets and so I said i would be fine still go.
I dropped them off this morning at the airport.
They'll be gone till Saturday.
I felt fine at the airport and saying good bys, but i'm struggling a bit now.
I've never been away from them overnight
Now im the only one home except for the dog for what i think will be the longest 5 days of my life.
I will be spending more time than usual on the forum this week so forgive me if i blabber, vent, chat, or breakdown more than regularly this week

[Victoria'smom]

Being away from family is hard. Keep yourself busy.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

post as much as you need. We're here.

[Wild Coyote]

Please post away!

I hope you can find distractions to get you through.
I also hope you are doing okay physically, after recently being in the hospital.

By the way, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

WC

[piano97]

Hang in there. Your feelings are normal.

Get plenty of rest and eat well. And some good exercise daily if can. Let your dog help out with that and enjoy a different sense of companionship.

It will pass quicker than you think in the end, and likely end up being a great opportunity for personal growth and a confidence builder. You and the whole family will benefit from that

To boot, it's new year's day! Fresh start. And this situation is part of that for you

[jaysmotogp]

Thank you all.
So day 1 ended up not too bad. I had some anxiety for a couple hours last night but was able to push through it without resorting to the klonopin.
My anxiety i think it felt like it was more of a shock thing (that i had actually dropped them off not to see them for a week), but then the shock sort of disipated and i was ok.
It was actually the reverse of the reaction i thought i would have.
I assumed i would be ok for a few days then as time went on my seperation anxiety might kick in. Well it still can i guess, its only on day 2 now. But im still feeling pretty good.

[piano97]

Jay,

That is great!!

Hi Jay. I'm so glad you got through your first day well. As others wrote, we're here for you.

I know what you're going through. My husband had to go to Europe for almost two weeks a while back and it was not a trip I could (or would want to) join him on. When he was away I planned lots of activities for myself, including walks downtown, visits with people, going to the movies, TV marathons, books, a few meals out at cheap places (pizzeria, taco joint, Moojah burgers), and a local cafe. I also kept in touch each day with hubby via Viber. Have you considered Viber or WhatsApp, or the like? They're nicer than just text messaging or even phone calls.

[jaysmotogp]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Hi Jay. I'm so glad you got through your first day well. As others wrote, we're here for you.

I know what you're going through. My husband had to go to Europe for almost two weeks a while back and it was not a trip I could (or would want to) join him on. When he was away I planned lots of activities for myself, including walks downtown, visits with people, going to the movies, TV marathons, books, a few meals out at cheap places (pizzeria, taco joint, Moojah burgers), and a local cafe. I also kept in touch each day with hubby via Viber. Have you considered Viber or WhatsApp, or the like? They're nicer than just text messaging or even phone calls.

Thanks BirdDancer, no i haven't heard of those(Vibor/WhatsApp), i'll have to look into those.

[~Christina]

Glad your doing well so far... good sign !

Originally Posted by jaysmotogp

Thanks BirdDancer, no i haven't heard of those(Vibor/WhatsApp), i'll have to look into those.

If you are interested in them, they are free apps through Google Play. Both you and anyone you'd want to have video/text conferences with would also have to download the free app. My husband and I both have android phones. I have no idea about anything for iPhones, if that is what you have.


Viber is with an "e"

[jaysmotogp]

Well this totally didn't go as i expected.
I assumed i would struggle with a depressive episode or have separation anxiety at the least, and instead what i got was it triggered a hypo episode lasting three weeks,then mixed for a few days, now i'm in the dark place
It was good in that during the week they were gone the hypo got me thru it no problem, but as you all know what goes up must come down and this one came down hard. And i spent a lot of money in those weeks, dammit.
I'm taking this episode with more anger/frustration this time for some reason.
I'm f%$king infuriated by this illness.
I did a lot of bad things when i was young so im not going to say i dont deserve it, but regardless i'm angry this time, real angry, want to smash this thing with a bat over its head angry
The last few depressive episodes were fairly short lived compared to last year so lets hope i can get it stabilized fairly quickly