[cashart10]

I fathom this will be short as this restoril is apparantly fast acting. Tomorrow, my teacher and other assistant is out. Wtf am I going to do? Me and subs? With a classroom full of special needs children, a couple violent, a few in diapers? I will be the only one in the room certified to restrain and I don’t think I can refrain the biggest kid and he is one of my two violent boys. Today was already awful. AWFUL! I have so much anxiety it’s ridiculous and I either want to cry or actually do cry all day. I’m in contact with pdoc at least once a day and she’s not crazy about me going in under the circumstances. She says if I get too stressed they’ll just have to pull elsewhere from the building and make it work. I just can’t imagine putting them in that position though.

[TheSeaCat]

I'm sorry you had a bad day at work and it looks like tomorrow is heading into disaster territory. I wish you luck if you do go into work tomorrow and hope you are okay.

[cashart10]

So...neither of the two subs nor the student teacher showed up this morning and not 1 of my 9 students was absent. That meant it was me and a damn certified resource teacher the entire day. That left teaching, diapering, behavior...EVERYTHING up to me. Without a break. SERIOUSLY???!!! I don’t know how the **** I got through the day. I was only assualted twice but only one of those two was from a student who could actually do any harm (of course the puny one did spit in my face about 5 times though). The big one I tried to get ahold of to restrain but he was kicking me repeatedly and so I couldn’t get under his arms to get him off the floor. So I gently laid on his legs and blocked his hits and attempts to bite with my arm until the resource teacher could get our security guy in the room to grab him. Then, the security guy had to come in the bathroom with me to change his pull up too because he continued to hit and try to bite me. I didn’t really want to restrain him anyway because that would have meant staying after school to finish the paperwork. The only other incident (thank God) was when one of my younger students decided to act like an *** and throw things around the room. That just meant a fight making him clean it up and then time out though. Regardless, I got through the day. And I did a pretty damn good job if I do say so myself. It wasn’t even bad emotionally because I was far too busy. The only time I got upset (and I’ll admit that I was fairly terrified) was when the bigger student started kicking me.

[wildflowerchild25]

Oh cash I know the trials of working in special ed as well. Today my girl threw up her feeding tube feed and hit me in the face with it so that was fun. When she was out getting the feeding tube I was working in different classrooms and had my hair pulled, my shirt grabbed, got pushed, etc. and don’t even get me started on working in the behavioral school. Restraints galore! I’m so proud of you for making it through. I know it’s not easy especially when you feel like **** mentally. Just trying to stress yourself too much. If you need to take time off for your own well-being you’re gonna have to do it.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm glad you made it through the day. I honestly can't say I'd be able to handle that.

[TheSeaCat]

I'm sorry hun that seems like a tough day but it seems like you handled yourself very well. I'm glad you got through your day. I hope you are okay it's never fun to be kicked and I'm sorry that happened to you.

[Sunflower123]

Wow! Kudos to you. I am so impressed with and admire you. I wouldn’t last 5 minutes on a good day. It takes a very special person to do what you are doing. I hope things get less stressful for you soon. Please take excellent care of yourself while you are going through this.

[Wander]

You are a legend making through an hour of that, never alone a whole day. I certainly couldn't manage it. I don't have any advice to offer except so all the self-care you can manage with such a busy home and work. Post here as much as you need. Venting can help. Take care beautiful.

[cashart10]

Thank you all so much! Today both my teacher and other assistant are back. I can’t tell you what a sigh of relief that is! I am having a difficult day though. I feel very anxious and can’t take s klonapin because I already feel so drowsy and groggy from the meds I’m taking at night. I just want to cry. I feel like I can’t do it anymore. But I am.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Oh cash I know the trials of working in special ed as well. Today my girl threw up her feeding tube feed and hit me in the face with it so that was fun. When she was out getting the feeding tube I was working in different classrooms and had my hair pulled, my shirt grabbed, got pushed, etc. and don’t even get me started on working in the behavioral school. Restraints galore! I’m so proud of you for making it through. I know it’s not easy especially when you feel like **** mentally. Just trying to stress yourself too much. If you need to take time off for your own well-being you’re gonna have to do it.

Omg! What a day! I’m so sorry. It’s so frustrating. It’s is rewarding though and I do love my kids so much! I feel you on the hair loss too. I didn’t mention it but I lost 3 big clumps of hair yesterday. That felt wonderful. 🙄

Wow. I am in awe of your ability to handle that, cashart! (And wildflowerchild!). Not in a million years could I not lose my **** dealing with that! (I'm scared of getting back into just dealing with the plain ol' public(!)) SO glad your regular teachers were there today!

You are amazing.