[ouch]

I was depressed and went on a date - good idea I know. He called to say it wasn't a match. Then another time I went on a date and was a bit high and was sociable and ended up dating a guy from the party I went to. Life is just too unpredictable - I feel I'll never be able to keep a relationship.

Also, today I hit my dog for destroying important books that I had. He is often destructive, but I shouldn't have taken it out on him...
I acted like my dad did towards me.

I am just too much of a mess right now. I can't take it anymore!!!

[jattitude74]

Maybe it's not you, just the guys you were dating!!!! Possible?? When I was in high school I went out with a lot of different guys, from one end of the spectrum to the other. None of them seemed to be "My type". I met my husband senior year, must have been 'normal' for a while, so I guess he got to see the real me. We have been together since Just about 15 years. He has managed to love me and deal with me so to speak, all this time. maybe you should try the dating thing when you are feeling stable and not too low or too high. Just a thought, you don't want to send out the wrong message to anyone and end up in a bad relationship either, been there too. When the time is right, you will find him, best of luck to you--Jen