Physical Check-In

I’ve been eating okay. I haven’t stepped on the scale but I don’t think it’s going to say what I want it to. With the nicer weather we’ve been having I’ve been more active which I’m sure is a good thing for my overall health and will eventually show on the scale. I’ve been wanting to eat everything I can get my hands on, including things I shouldn’t be eating but I think that’s from my period coming. Hopefully it passes soon.

I have been doing great with my eating most of the daytime hours, but in the later evenings (8 to 10 pm) I overeat.

I just got back from walking briskly for an hour- paused timer for a pee break. Getting a shower while doing laundry. Need something for lunch.

That’s exactly what happens to me. I’ve been pretty good recently since I got all of my favorite snacks out of the house.

I admire all of you that are able to eat well and exercise. I just can't motivate myself to do that. I've just settled with the idea that I will be fat. The cravings for sugar and fast foods are just too strong to overcome.

You can do it! None of us are able to do it all of the time, but the days we try count. The cravings get better the more you cut back. The more you eat these foods, the more you want them. It is a crap cycle, but it gets better after a while. Don't give up hope if you want to be healthier. If not, that's fine too. We accept you any way you choose to be.

Fern: The gastroparesis diet is bland, soft, low-fiber, non-fat food eaten in six small meals a day. By it's nature, it will be a low-calorie diet. I just meant that i want to focus on the types of food without getting crazed about cals and calorie-counting. I'm quite a wreck today. I didn't sleep til 8:00am and i'm all dehydrated and headachey.

It does sound like a diet friendly diet and I definitely agree it wouldnt make sense to worry yourself with counting when you are trying to heal. I had never heard of that condition before and had to look it up. I'm sorry younare feeling so rough today. I hope it improves for you soon!!

Today started out with healthy eating, but then my mother in law surprised us with an Easter cake. I decided to go for it and treat myself. We had junk for dinner, but healthier than take out junk. Turkey burgers and sweet potato fries.

Speaking of healthier versions of things, I am always looking for new recipes to try. I'd love some links if anyone has recommendations.

It rained all day and I only exercised a little while I was waiting on dinner to cook. I guess a little bit is better than nothing. I'm going to try to stay off the scale for a few days though to give my body time to drop the water weight. I'd take a 1 lb loss at this point.

Yesterday I went way over because we went out to dinner and I had a drink. Did you know mike’s hard has 220 calories? I limited myself to one. I better go back to my spiked seltzer’s. Only 100 calories per serving. Or, just not drink at all lol. I rarely drink anyway. I did walk half a mile though so that’s good. Today I’m on track to be under calories. I had fast food for lunch but only a sandwich, no fries. I spent 1.5 hours cleaning my son’s absolute wreck of a room so I’m sure that counted for some exercise

Also my scale is low on batteries so I won’t be able to weigh myself until I get new ones. Probably best that way.

I ate horribly today. We had pizza for lunch at a birthday party and we ate out for dinner. I also couldn't resist eating a few pieces of chocolate when I was putting together Easter baskets for my kids. I'm glad I decided to stay off the scale for a few days because today's result would not be friendly to my goals.

It rained again today, so I exercised inside. I'm glad I got a bit of activity in, but it wasn't enough to offset my eating today.

I had a coffee around noon but without my usual cereal. By 2:00 when I got to my mom's for Easter dinner, my blood sugar tanked. Then dinner was over an hour late. I ate a modest meal and no 2nd helpings. Now I still feel blah. No exercise today because of the blah feeling. But bipolarwise I'm fine. No anxiety, depression, hypo/mania, hallucinations or delusions. I will not fight against these psych meds anymore. They are slowly killing me and nobody cares except my liver doctor. I have 4 months until I see him again and I'll be damned if I'm going to sit around waiting to die a premature death any longer. That's it. Diet and exercise is the way to true happiness.

Dinner could have been higher cal. Ham is always a reasonable holiday option. My only major splurges were a thin slice of the bi*chen cake I made (wonderful!) and two small chocolate covered peanut butter Easter eggs my sister made from scratch. Hey, it was a holiday and my dad's b-day. No major guilt.

I overate today. I had too much chocolate and sweets. I told myself I wouldn’t care because it’s Easter but I saw myself in my gandma’s full length mirror and I look awful. All my weight is in my stomach and I look pregnant. It’s horrible. Doubling down on diet efforts tomorrow. I’m going to make sure I walk too. I NEED to lose 20lbs. At least! Technically I need to lose 80lbs to be back in a “normal” weight range but that’s too much to even think about. That’s why my first goal is to get back to the weight I was in February before my back gave out. I’m hoping getting back to work will also help me because I will be more active.

Just home from vacation where I didn’t watch a single calorie , I gained some but I know if will fall back off since it did when I dumped Latuda.

The food in Savannah was so amazing I didn’t say no at all.

I do need to increase my exercise. It’s just hard knowing that each mile I go is probably causing my PsA arthritis to get worse, but the health benefits of losing this psych Med induced weight far out weights my possibly making PsA worse or at least I say that today.

Not doing well. Trauma seems to have locked up my stomach bad. I was in so much pain I saw an emergency GP last night. He gave me laxatives but no luck so far. At least the nausea tablets work. Supposed to go to my normal GP tomorrow but doubt she can do anything. So tired of seeing doctors I doubt I will go.

Just home from a walk with my youngest. Four miles in 2 hours there and back. Its a start. I am sweaty from head to toe. Shower time!

That's an awesome walk. Well done!

I have done ok today. I have eaten exactly the amount of calories I am allowed. Unfortunately it is only six pm and I will undoubtedly be hungry later. So I will go over but I will try to keep it minimal. Maybe just a yogurt. I just got caught by all the damn candy in the house. Stupid Easter. I have to hide it or something. Put it on top of the fridge where it won’t be seen. I can’t throw it out because it’s my son’s, which you would think would keep
Me from eating it lol but no.

I did go on a three quarter mile walk today. My Achilles’ tendon hurt by the end and my feet were burning and tingling so I may have pushed myself too far. I have physical therapy tomorrow for the first time. I don’t want to go. I hate PT. I did it all last summer for my back and it sucked. I just hate boring exercise. But it must be done.

I ate well today. I also stayed pretty active and went for a walk. I'm feeling much more energetic during the day now that I'm taking my Geodon at night. Also, the Risperdal I was taking can cause weight gain. I'm completely off it now, so I hope that helps the scale begin to go in the right direction.

I ate some sugar on Easter, but I've been back to minimal sugar for the past two days. The cravings are so much better when I just stay away from it as much as possible. It is like a downward spiral once I start.

Went to hospital as stomach pains became severe. See my post in thread 33. They were thorough and came up with a diagnosis. I will be ok with further treatment. It took 8 hours but I can’t complain. It’s a great hospital.

Wander - I'm so sorry you've been going through so much pain. It is good to hear you have an answer for the cause now. I hope you feel much better soon!

I don't have gastroparesis so i'm free to diet again. I did my physical therapy and studied myself in the wall of mirrors after while i drank my water. It struck me that i am not grotesquely fat, i am just overweight. It's not gross or disgusting. It's not a catastrophe or a crisis. It's nothing to hate myself for. It's nothing to get excited about. It's just the result of careless eating and inertia. I just have to focus and diet and exercise and all will be well!

I'm not gonna count calories or get crazed with hunger this time. If i'm hungry, i'll eat but just make better choices. I have a fridge full of good options. What a feeling!

Whatever2013 - that seems like a very healthy outlook on your body. It is so easy to become too concerned with our appearances and accepting ourselves as we are is so important. Good reminder.

I stepped on the scale today and I'm down 3 lbs. I think getting off Risperdal has helped and I shed some of the water weight I was carrying. My clothes feel better and that's all I really wanted. I'm going to keep working to get back to my normal weight, but I'm happy with the way things are for now.

Got my exercise in by cutting the grass. The only exercise I get regularly. I really need to start walking, but my neighborhood is not walker friendly...no sidewalks. I'm also cooking dinner for once, bbq chicken and potatoes.