[Moose72]

My revved up feeling has turned into no sleep and exhaustion- but I can't stop. I just had a conversation with a guy that Ive seen lots of times before but we just said hi or are you leaving this seat? Anyway, we talked a long time about lots of things. I couldn't stop yapping. I just kept talking despite my better judgement- well who's kidding who?- that flew out the window. I just kept talking and things came out of my mouth that now I am worried he's going to stalk me and kill me and my kids! I stayed up until 3 ish last night watching the same movie over and over. I constantly have infinite energy while at the same time feel the need to crash in the middle of the day for a third time this week. Day after day I reat this pattern: talk too much about things I shouldn't be saying at all at whoever is willing to listen. I can't stop until I am forced to. I've also spent all my money in the last week. My account is overdrawn, actually.

Despite all of this, I don't care! Eh, whatever! God has taken all my worries away- what a gift it truely is. Jesus is Lord! He told me the meaning of my entire life and that the universe and I are one now and forever just like his love. I know all.

[fern46]

It sounds like you are experiencing mania. Please be careful. You mentioned you have children. I'm sure you want to be safe for them and also keep them safe. Mania can spiral into full on psychosis very quickly. I don't want to bring you down, but I don't want you to get hurt in a crash. Hugs and prayers for a safe landing.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

My revved up feeling has turned into no sleep and exhaustion- but I can't stop. I just had a conversation with a guy that Ive seen lots of times before but we just said hi or are you leaving this seat? Anyway, we talked a long time about lots of things. I couldn't stop yapping. I just kept talking despite my better judgement- well who's kidding who?- that flew out the window. I just kept talking and things came out of my mouth that now I am worried he's going to stalk me and kill me and my kids! I stayed up until 3 ish last night watching the same movie over and over. I constantly have infinite energy while at the same time feel the need to crash in the middle of the day for a third time this week. Day after day I reat this pattern: talk too much about things I shouldn't be saying at all at whoever is willing to listen. I can't stop until I am forced to. I've also spent all my money in the last week. My account is overdrawn, actually.


Despite all of this, I don't care! Eh, whatever! God has taken all my worries away- what a gift it truely is. Jesus is Lord! He told me the meaning of my entire life and that the universe and I are one now and forever just like his love. I know all.

J , your manic. This is “ typical “ for you when your unwell.

Are you taking your meds ? You need to contact your pdocs office sooner rather than later

Stay safe.

Please call your pdoc ASAP, this doesn't sound well. Hope you have a safe landing.

[yellow_fleurs]

I also hope you will call your pdoc, this post and a couple of your other recent ones make me think you are experiencing mania, too. I am sure it feels great right now, but I doubt this can end well. Please stay safe.

[franz kafka]

I agree with the others. God telling me things is a sure sign of mania. Please contact your treatment team.

[Jedi67]

Be safe and be well, Moose. Sending loving thoughts your way. You seem to be in a full blown manic phase. Get in touch with your support team right away. Have a safe landing!

[Moose72]

last night i was exhausted!! I crashed into bed feeling like id been run over by a herd of bison. This morning i got up early and feel not so crushed.

Im going to see my case manager in a few minutes. I just talked with her.

[Moose72]

Case manager said im manic. She read my blog ! A LOT of the past two weeks worth! She said i should hang out with a friend today while i wait for my psych nurse to call back. Going to friend's house for a bit i guess. CM says "who is P.D.O.C.? Sharon?" Lol you guessed it! Ding! Ding!

[fern46]

Good for you for going in. I hope you feel better soon!

[Moose72]

Mmmm! The textures of these crackers in my mouth! Heightened senses is great! Ultra green grass, the feeling of cool air going through my nasal passanges as I inhale!

[Moose72]

My friend just put this 3-footed hand massager on my back and said "You deserve this..." It felt sooooo good! Lit up my brain- my brain actually felt like IT was being massaged!

[Moose72]

Neither my case manager nor my psych NP got in touch with me like I was promised one would. Whatevah. Why do I try?

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Neither my case manager nor my psych NP got in touch with me like I was promised one would. Whatevah. Why do I try?

Because you are worth trying for. Follow up tomorrow. You shouldn't have to work so hard to get help, but sometimes its the only way. I do think it is irresponsible for them not to get in touch with you and let you continue on when manic. Hopefully it will work out tomorrow. There's always the hospital if you need immediate help. Hugs.

[~Christina]

Call back first thing in the morning

[LadyShadow]

I am sorry you didn't get anyone in touch with you. God telling you things DOES NOT make you manic. I get so upset when I hear that because God speaks to plenty of people who have faith so if you had a very spiritual experience that is something to be celebrated.

But you are definitely manic because of the lack of sleep and heightened senses, also with the fast talking and "everything is amazing!" feeling. It sucks that we can't enjoy that, but when we crash it usually brings down everything.

If you need to go to the Emergency Room tomorrow because you can't get your Case Manager or Doctor to call you, then do that. You may only need a med change.

God Bless and Warm Hugs.

[BipolaRNurse]

Religious delusions are very common in mania (I get them myself) and while not everything IS a religious delusion, your other symptoms make you sound really manic. If you can't get your mental healthcare providers to call you back, go to the ER. You probably won't be admitted since you're not a danger to yourself or others, but you may get a much-needed medication adjustment. Good luck.

[BenDhyan]

Religious experiences in themselves are not necessarily delusions (though some are), but what follows wrt thoughts about such religious experience may certainly be so. Reality is forever on the other side of thought! The concept of, or thought about, realty or any aspect of reality is not that reality, reality is real, concepts and thoughts about it are only mental representations of the real. When I understood that, I was able to put my religious experience down to being real, but that any ideas as to why it happened is speculative and so not to get ahead of the unfolding development of my life in the context of the bigger picture. Iow, I am not the messiah until I am...

[Moose72]

Pdoc called this morning- says Im manic too. Putting me back on seroquel at a higher dose- morning, afternoon and night doses. She said she doesnt know why but Spring is high for mania. I took the morning dose and right now i want coffee but i also im hungry again but I ate bfast already. She also doesn't want me to drive as she's afraid I'll crash my car from my wreckless driving. I seem to be calmer when i wake up- but i was up at 5 today; two hours early- then soon start racing again. Pdoc says she doesnt want me to crash depression-wise. I can't picture that very easily but I think having a good cry would release some of this energy that's built up.

[Moose72]

Life in the Fast Lane (2013 Remaster) by Eagles - Listen to music

Please call the doctor
I think I'm gonna crash.
Well the doctor say he comin'
But you gotta pay him cash.

Yup!!

[Moose72]

This increased seroquel dose is kicking my ***. Since 930 ive taken a total of 200 and i take 200 more at bedtime. My mom is coming over but i'll just sleep anyway. I feel like I've been run over by a herd of angry, wet buffalo! I have lots of body aches and can barely keep my eyes open. This is better??

[Moose72]

What do i do to combat this awful sleepiness? I don't want to sleep all day again. Ive lost 5 pounds from exercising recently but i have syrup for brains and I feel like Ive taken a handful of valium.

[fern46]

I have no advice other than give it time. Let it bring you down for a while and then maybe you can talk with your doc about easing up on the dose. I'm not familiar with that drug but it seems like a high dose meant to pull you out of mania. Maybe they would be ok with just twice a day soon.

Hugs. I know what it is like to feel zombified and in need of an all day nap. It isn't a good feeling, but it is safer than psychosis.

[Moose72]

I give up.... I can't win for losing.

[Moose72]

Its 11 pm and my youngest wont stop playing the piano and singing the same thing over and over! We do have neighbors on each side of the apartment!