Pdoc -eye roll-

Saw pdoc at t’s advice. He said I’m Hypo and headed up. He cut my antidepressant dose. I’m supposed to see him again in three weeks but call him in one week and let him know how I’m doing.

He also said I’m rapid cycling. I told him God is talking to me through worship music. I also told him how I went to my church’s worship night and it was amazing and I’m on a Jesus high!!!!!!!

I see t tomorrow.

I hope you feel better soon.

The problem
Is
I feel

aMaZIng!!

I'm sorry but I had to laugh at this. Literally only a problem for those on the bp spectrum and our treatment team, and people without sza or bp would be like "whaaa? that doesn't sound like a problem!"

I hope your t appointment goes well and you get to enjoy a short hypo without any painful consequences or a crash.

Enjoy while it lasts but I'd call pdoc back. When I start talking about how I'm one with God and the universe Im manic. Seems like you might be headed that way.

There’s nothing wrong with feeling great after a religious service , but this is a road you have travelled down many times in the past. I just hope this doesn’t lead you down a rabbit hole.

I’m glad your Pdoc made a change in your AD ! I hope it pulls you back to baseline.

I’m enjoying the feeling but I am
Following his advice
Too. I already cut the celexa pills
In half. For tomorrow.

Lord I wanted to
Shop! But I didn’t!

And oh lol

I talked this lady’s head off in the pdoc waiting room
Haha
We had a nice convo

It's fine to feel amazing but it's the "side effects" that are the issue.

I DID however stop at Starbucks for a
Venti pink
Drink!!!!! It’s like a little
Piece of heaven

I fought the urge to
Pump
Up the music and dance in pdoc waiting room. Odd urge but it was so serious there

My favorite line to my psychiatrist is "not everything is clinical". His response to me is "you lack insight". I never see when I'm manic. I have to be told. I know all the words. Hypermotor, pressured speech, word salad, delusions of grandeur, irrational spending, magic thinking, I could go on but they don't mean anything to me.. It really does take a psychiatrist to diagnose mania because we as patients often as the clinical term says "lack insight".

Stay in touch with your psychiatrist. He's the guy to do the diagnosing.

I don’t usually see it til
It’s too late!!!!!!

My psychologist told me I needed to see my pdoc

I've been surprised at how many people will laugh, and join in, when I do it

How do you feel today compared to yesterday, now that you’ve reduced your AD dose?

I take it in tbt morning so I haven’t taken the pharmacy of pills yet!

I hardly slept. The dogs kept
Barking and I just couldn’t

Im heeeeeeeeerrrrrrreeeeee to see t.

It’s raining! Too bad it’s not “raining men!” Bahahaha

Oh! I want a tattoo to cover my self harm
Scars
On my thigh

good luck with your appointment.

Well thanks love

Paul Schafer, Letterman's sidekick, co-wrote that song.

Accept yourself. Anyone who loves you will too.

T said not to get tattoo. Over and over he said it.

He says I’m hypo and wants to see me again next week. He was so serious.

What do you think of his opinion on the tattoo?

Do you feel you are being impulsive? Usually people think about tattoos for a while, and definitely longer than a day. I think a lot of people usually spend at least a few months thinking about it before they commit. Gives them a chance to confront their doubts and decide if it’s something they really want to do.

Also, if you think your mood is elevated, do you think there’s a risk you might regret the tattoo later?

I don’t know but I promised I wouldn’t get it. He said to wait.

Also I’m
Hearing a woman talking and in a house alone.
I just faintly hear her.