[HALLIEBETH87]

I’ve ALWAYS wished I finished college. I wanted to be a therapist. My psyd says I can do it and others do too but I can’t even successfully hold a freaking full time job! I’m feeling sorry for myself today so excuse the pity party.

It’s twelve years today since dad died and I always get emotional and sad about everything on this day.

I just WISH I could be a t like I’ve always dreamed and not have sza and be a good person like I wanna be.

**** im crying. I’m gonna go eat my feelings.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I even applied to school last year. Got accepted.

[~Christina]

No one knows the future. Just because you couldn’t then/now doesn’t mean you can’t in the future.

New medications are always being developed, the next one down the pipe line could be the turning point in managing your Bipolar more effectively, allowing you to go to school and follow your dreams.

I’m sorry your dealing with the anniversary of losing your Father , I get it truly. I’m a mess each year.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Everything is just a pity party and stressful
Today. I appreciate your words. It’s like this every year.

I just really miss my daddy.

[HopeForChange]

I am very sorry about your dad - anniversaries are always hard.

As for your dreams - never let go of your dreams. If the "87" in your username is your birth year, you have your whole life ahead of you. Also, I have always felt that jobs that require more education tend to be less stressful than entry-level jobs. I have a doctorate and work in research, for example, but I wouldn't last ten minutes in a grocery store. Some jobs might not be right for you, but that doesn't mean you won't find the perfect job somewhere down the road. Please don't give up on your dreams at such a young age.

As far as wanting to be a good person - I think you are a wonderful person already. Your education and job don't define your worth as a person. Please go easy on yourself, especially today.