what is one thing you have said to someone (either stable or in an episode), that you really wish you hadn't said for what ever reason?

probably my biggist thing was:

Possible trigger:

telling someone my entire suicide plan

what made it worse though is that this person was friends with my therapist at the time and told her about it

my therapist at the time though was actually ****, and though she did put me on watch she was convinced I wouldn't do it

still. I wish I'd not said it

Hi raging vortex. I guess it's understandable that when someone hears about such a thing that they take it serious. Honestly, if they didn't, that would be delinquent of them. I wish my youngest nephew had called me on June 17, 2017 and told me what he wanted to do. But he kept it quiet.

I can't even count how many horrible or embarrassing things I've said when hypomanic and manic. Sometimes I'm a little too brutally honest, even stable. I guess the last thing that sticks out was when I was manic on my way home from Portugal with my husband a couple years back. It was our 20th anniversary trip. I don't remember verbatim, but not only was my illness highly upsetting him, but I said that I hated the trip. He started to cry hard on the plane on our way home.

I know that my bipolar disorder is not my choice, but it definitely hurts me how it has affected my husband's life negatively and scared him. I would blame myself more, at times, if I didn't put an effort into treating it. That is why I am serious about finding the best medication mix, working hard in therapy, and trying to live the healthiest life possible. Decisions to reject treatment can sometimes be highly self-centered decisions.

[*Beth*]

There are a few things, but by far the one I most regret is advising my daughter to stay with her husband when she didn't want to. At that time I thought more of him than he turned out to be. I wish I would have encouraged her to leave him that night.

[Wild Coyote]

I'll have to give this some thought.
Thank you, Raging Vortex.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Telling my psyd that I had come close to suicide. I won’t offer any details

telling my friend adam to " move out" after he asked me if he should stay with his parents or not.

wish I'd thought about it more and not been so blunt about it

it related to family, so was a bit of a trigger.. gfuess that explains some of the reason I reacted like I did

not something I said, but something I did:

covering my best friend's (at the time) sterrio with water breaking it.

and snapping his favorite jazz cd

both just felt right at the time.

[~Christina]

Yes, I’m not going to post as I’m sure it could be triggering to others.

I certainly regret it.

[TunedOut]

There are many things but that I am not stating what they were means I am doing really well right now!

[bshaffer836]

There’s so many embarrassing things that it would be easier to regret being born. So I just try to forget these moments or just laugh at them to myself lol

Originally Posted by TunedOut

There are many things but that I am not stating what they were means I am doing really well right now!

good to hear you're doing well!

[Amy3boys]

When I was really upset/feeling rejected by my husband a few times, there's something I did, not said: I put my profile/picture on a dating website and sought out attention from other men.I posted that I was "separated", which I wasn't. I never actually met any of these men in person but I did reply to a couple of their messages.

[BipolaRNurse]

I wish I'd never texted my oldest daughter that I was planning to OD one night. She sounded the alarm and called my husband to let him know (I had not shared this information with him), and called all the other kids as well. Hubby even threatened me with the police if I carried out my intentions. I got over it, didn't OD but I don't think my family has ever truly trusted me again.