[cashart10]

This seems like such a taboo conversation and more importantly issue since I am a woman. I used to watch porn when I was highly manic and extremely hyper sexual and always hid it from my husband. While he would have understood from the standpoint I was sick, it would have hurt him.

Now though...now, I am watching it even when I’m not manic. I hate that I do it. I feel like i can’t confess it to anyone, not even my therapist because I’m so embarrassed and I think I’ve literally told her every last detail about my life. I don’t think I’m addicted to it as it isn’t something I have to have all the time but when I’m tempted, it’s hard to pass up. I disagree with it spiritually because it is so lustful and I know it is inevitably harmful towards intimacy with my husband. I also know it would hurt him. I worry every time he picks up my phone for some reason that my unsearchable iPhone searches will somehow show up and he will find out. I have been praying about it but I just can’t find the solution. Any thoughts?