[Crook32]

Most on us get up each day and go to jobs that are completely meaningless. They have pretty much been constructed this society to keep us busy and to reduce wars. Unless you are in the medical field then everything you do is just there to keep you in line. Who knows maybe we all are really in the Matrix. But I just wake up and feel like why should I bother. This system has just been create as a was to keep the masses calm. I wake up each morning and wonder why I bother. Yeah you all think I am crazy.

[singularity01]

Some what true... I think the meaning of life is defined by the individual. It is your life, so you have to make your own meaning. The meaning isn't shared among all people and it isn't something that is predefined for you upon your birth. No one can tell you what is meaningful for you.

[Rick7892]

Before and after the Holidays, I have regularly myself down in the dumps, questioning the meaning of my life. Not a good place to be. But it happens, and I then try to practice helpful ways for me to see things in a different perspective..

It helps for me to see people who have found meaning in their life, even though they may not be doing big things like changing society. They can be helping others, even in small ways. As a result, I can try to follow their examples, in ways that I can.

Today, I found meaning in voluntarily putting out the recycle cans without being asked at the apt building where I live to be emptied. After the truck emptied the cans, I put them back. No money in it for me, no one thanked me for doing it, but it got me outside of my apt where I was living too much in my head into a sunny day. As a result, I had a good conversation with the apt handyman, one that I think was good for both of us. Nothing earth shattering, but I often find it is the little things in my life that help give my life meaning. Kindnesses and courtesies received and given that were not required or paid for.

The beauty of Nihilism is the rejection of all moral and religious principles -- which were created by humans to control humans. Remove those constraints, and yes, life has no meaning. But that's also a freeing thought. Life being meaningless does not need to correlate with feeling happy. You can feel happy knowing that you are responsible for creating meaning in your life.

Does that make sense at all?

[luvyrself]

You work very hard and are under-appreciated at work. Can you take a vacation?

[sarahsweets]

Once you find your own personal meaning of life it is no longer pointless.

I also want to add that Buddhists believe that we ascribe meaning to everything we experience, since nothing is fixed or permanent.

Here's a Buddhist aphorism to wrap your head around: "The moment you realize you're not present...you are."

[Fuzzybear]

[*Beth*]

Uhhhh...nope. I don't think you're crazy at all. I spent time living on a kibbutz in Israel and experienced what it's like to do meaningful work for the good of the collective and not to constantly worry about losing utilities, car, being homeless.


I believe that our society if effed beyond belief. I just try to keep going...and hoping.

[Fuzzybear]

I also think society is very much effed ..

[Crook32]

I was sick last weekend and I have been sick all this weekend. I have a job interview Tuesday but I just feel like cancelling it. I am getting a migraine so I shouldn’t even be trying to type this. I want to call my T but I have sent her enough emails this weekend bothering her.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Crook32

I was sick last weekend and I have been sick all this weekend. I have a job interview Tuesday but I just feel like cancelling it. I am getting a migraine so I shouldn’t even be trying to type this. I want to call my T but I have sent her enough emails this weekend bothering her.

I am so sorry, Crook.

[Crook32]

So I made it into work even though I don’t want to be here.

What questions should I ask at my interview tomorrow? I am still not 100% and there is supposed to be bad weather in the morning so I have no clue when to leave. My anxiety is shooting up again. My T thinks I have a history of anxiety but that right now it is mostly situational and that is fueling my depression.

[~Christina]

I was once at a horrible job toxic as hell on all levels. Mentally I was a mess ( undiagnosed BP and on a freaking AD )

I had a chance at a great job I literally talked to myself in the mirror for hours and hours. I truly believe anyone can do anything for 15 mins ... so kick yourself in the Asss and be an actor for that interview.. when it’s all over get in your car and has a good sob ..

You CAN do this. Shove everything mentally out of the way and just go get that job and think of the enjoyment of cleaning out your desk and leaving that horrible place for the last time.

[Crook32]

Got maybe an hour of sleep. Made pasta at midnight I guess making up for not eating all weekend. I just hope I can find this place. I am not going to their office. We are meeting at a customers office. I am basically interviewing with the customer not the company.

[Rick7892]

I hope you are doing OK, no matter how the interview went!

[~Christina]

Hope it went well

[Crook32]

So apparently there are 2 spots and they are only interviewing 2 people. The company I would technically work for is a contractor but the company I would be working with is going to make the decision. The contractor is hoping they like the two of us and will hire us and be done with it. The job is less hands on and more meetings but I figure at my age it is the natural progression of things so I have to roll with it. They were really nice and things seemed to go well but I have thought that before so I am a bad judge of things. Waiting to hear back is the hardest part. The other guy is interviewing today. I am pretty sure it will be a pay cut but we will have to see how much.

[Crook32]

Trying not to get my hopes up but they asked for references. I was told that is a good sign but I have been burned before so I am trying to be cautious. But it is hard to not imagine when my last day would be at this toxic workplace. I am scared to see the benefits package because I know it will suck compared to what I have now.

[~Christina]

I hope things work out and you can leave the toxic hell behind you

[*Beth*]

I have my fingers crossed for you. No one should have to work at a job that makes them feel shitey about life.