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If you read my other thread, you know I’m having some serious issues with my son. So I’m laying here snuggled next to him, as he’s sleeping soundly and I literally feel as though I’m about to vomit and I have a headache. And I’m listening to Rod Stewart (no good right now). And I am terrified of the idea that he might have bipolar that looks like mine. I remember during my first severe episode at 14 and it scares the **** out of me...especially knowing the statistics are even worse for boys. I feel lost.

I know it is scary but you are doing everything right. If anything happens before you either hear from your pdoc or see the pediatrician I think you should take him in to the ER, especially if you have a children's ER near you.

Here's how I know you are doing things right. When I was about 14 and suicidal I had stockpiled pills and had written a note to my best friend about feeling suicidal. My mom found the note, ordered me to not be suicidal and didn't even notice the CPS caseworker I had at the time.

having a mom who is supportive from the beginning is a real help. You're doing the right things. Just keep reciting that and try to slide into sleep. You won't be able to help him if you don't sleep.

Thank you

Also you haven't done anything that would result in CPS getting involved. You haven't physically harmed him or neglected his basic needs. Lots of parents do med breaks; when I was a camp counselor lots of parents sent their kids off their meds so the parents didn't have to deal with the med holiday. That's not a big deal and did not harm him. It's really hard most of the time to get CPS involved when there is serious abuse.

So please don't worry about that.

I have the same fears as you do with my son BUT he has a loving supportive mom who knows what to look for. You're also trying to set him up with a good treatment team. Those two things make all the difference in the world.

You are doing absolutely everything right, @cashart10. I know you, yourself, feel like crap right now, but hopefully you both got a little sleep. Just keep doing what you are doing. Stay on it. Don't let him isolate, even if he wants to. And again, the ER is not the enemy (not saying you think it is). If you need to go, you need to go. Period. We've all been there.

Sending you prayers and support and calming brain waves for you both. You'll get through this.

I agree with everyone else - You are handling the situation as well as anyone could.

I can only imagine how scary it must be for you, your son, and your family.

For what it's worth, I think you're being a great mom right now by reaching out for help and doing whatever you can to support him. I'm confident both you and him will be okay in the end, especially since you're being so vigilant and caring. I'm also confident that your comfort provides him with a sense of safety and brings him at least some relief from the mental torture.

I wish you the best of luck. Let us know how things go. You deserve mom of the year award.

Thank you all for your support. You have made me feel a little better. My husband is off and we’ve been out running and busy all day so I think he’s been a little better, though now he keeps asking me when he will get to see a doctor. I’m hoping she will fit him in on Monday as long as he doesn’t get worse. She’s out of the office of Fridays. I’m still waiting on her returned call but I know she’s swamped as she’s been out of the office for a bit celebrating the holidays.

I'm pulling for you. Keep us posted.

My pdoc wasn’t able to call me back until 4. My son is a little young for her to see, it seems, so she highly recommended 2 different child psychiatrists. I called but had to leave msgs for both since it was end of day. Hopefully they call back early tomorrow. I decided to go ahead and let my own therapist evaluate him to see if she is able to work with him. She is awesome she’s just not sure because she thinks he may need someone who specializes in autism. We are going to her on Monday. Hopefully nothing changes so we are able to wait until them. I’m nervous there may be a wait for the psychiatrists and I’m not sure what we’ll do if that’s the case!

I am glad you got the names of some child psychiatrists, and hope there isn't a long wait. Maybe your therapist will be able to provide some useful feedback even if they cannot work with them. Did your therapist know anyone that works with children with autism?

Definitely heading in a good direction.

I’m hoping my therapist will at least be able to help some. I have a feeling she’ll be able to see him permanently. She hasn’t recommended anyone yet.

Don’t forget the local crisis resources i sent you