[giddykitty]

Dude! I'm wide awake and it's 2.5hrs past my bedtime! Lying in bed and mind racing. Want to talk to all these people, ask all these questions, find out all the answers. I really tried sleeping for like an hour but couldn't, so I gave in to the urge to post.

Anyone here get triggered into hypomania or mania from too much screen time?


After thinking on this more I realized that this could be caffeine alertness...but that was now 6 hours ago, at least!

[giddykitty]

Am i hurt or irritable today? I feel rejected and alone. I had a FB post declined. Not even sure why (I realize folks want specific content on their pages but I thought it was fine.) Anyway, gah! And then...just...idek! I just wanna go back to bed. Feeling bum! But I'm not really tired. But my eyes hurt. I really ought get off the screen. But I'm addicted. But gah, that makes me sad. I'm pathetic! I've no life! Whatever, the world can go to he'll! (Sorry, but I'm frustrated! )

[FearandLoathing40]

I have a REALLY hard time staying off. I don't know which fuels the other, but it sucks

[bpcyclist]

You are sounding possibly a bit hypo at least to me. Do you have an upcoming appt. with your pdoc, by chance?

I am sorry you are hurting about your fb thing. As I have shared here before, somewhat unpopularly, I am no facebook man. Not a fan. I think a whole darn lot of hurtful things go on on facebook and that it is in large measure, a breeding ground for needless self-aggrandizement and self-promotion. It celebrates almost all the wrong things, Just in my view.

So,I do other things. Maybe you should look into whether you might spend more time doing hobbies or exercising or yoga or writing or doing art or music or volunteering or...

You get the idea. Just some thoughts. I hope you feel better soon.

[Fuzzybear]

Since you live in the USA you probably do have access to a pdoc, unlike here.
Also I agree, less screen time

[jacelove]

It sounds possible that you are experiencing the early stages of hypomania, though I'm not a doctor. Just someone who has bipolar disorder (technically schizoaffective). Maybe call your doctor if it's a genuine concern.

[bizi]

sorry about the face book frustration.
We share about the internet addiction already...so I hear you sister!
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[giddykitty]

Well I stayed off the internet for most of the day today due to the fact that my husband was downloading his video game and didn't want any interference.
but as far as hypo, it probably wasn't since I went back to sleep from noon to 3...I mean, part of this was because hubby wanted to cuddle (awwww, right?), but I was feeling kinda upset about the FB thing and just wanted to shut out the world. It felt different than a depressed sleep...i dunno! Gah! I'm so sorry, I mean no disrepect to anyone on this group, but oftentimes I wish I had bipolar just because I hate being damn depressed and/or disappointed in life so much. I mean, I have lots to be thankful for, but I have lots to gripe about....I could make different life decisions, but I don't think I'd find anything better. I mean, I'd have to compromise some things for other things and I don't think it's worth it. Sigh!

About the bipolar-I mean, I have had experience, but it must've been a fluke and/or when I was on "ADHD" meds. The euphoria was amazing! I wish I could feel like that all the time...but I supposed that'd be like using recreational drugs and I don't do that.

Ok, done with my rant.

[giddykitty]

Ummm.... husband just said I'm starting to backtalk again and wondered if I was on a new med that's causing this. I am not. Now, my instinct is to say this is p m s, but I haven't had this irritability in many months! Could this then be hypomania?....or do I just need an antidepressant increase...or a less annoying husband? Lol but all joking aside, just wondering if this is just a coincidence or something more. Hmm

[Fuzzybear]

I'm ****ed since I cant take any of the meds
sorry about the growl in your thread

[giddykitty]

Folks! I really don't know, but I had trouble sleeping again last night and trying to take a nap this afternoon, but I don't feel tired/sleepy. I also went out in the sun this morning, just for like 5 minutes, but it's like only the second time in weeks that I've been out in the sun. Well, it felt fantastic!

I know my fasting hunger was a large part of my poor sleep, and this continued internet use (I'm addicted though. Sorry), but I'm feeling better than I have in months! (Years?)

Was hoping writing this down would help me get sleepy...it's kinda working...but...well, we will see...

[giddykitty]

Revisiting this because I'm wondering if my anxiety of late (coupled with all the other concerns I've mentioned in this thread, excited and addicted to screentime, feeling good, and less sleep) is part of hypomania (or maybe Cyclothymia??) or just plain anxiety. I wish I could differentiate the two!...this anxiety was primarily episodic though. could it mean...?