just wondering... does anyone NOT feel motivated to do things? I'm SO bored.

In place of doing fun things, I've been shopping apparently. Spent way too much money on things like movies, books, etc.. I don't know why I did this when I was bored. I think I wanted new movies, books, etc. to try, but there are tons of movies, books, etc. that I own and haven't even watched/read yet! And some of these things... well... I don't know if I even want them anymore! The bulk of them are used though, so I'd have to resell them on eBay or something to get rid of them.

I'm not actually depressed. There are just so many things I can, need, want, and should do that I'm overwhelmed and just don't know what to pick/do. Thus, I just lay in bed and stare at the ceiling, feeling bored... but I can't actually sleep.

I bugged the s*** out of my parents by calling them 6 times today. I think they're sick of me calling so often, but of course they won't say that. But I was reading funny stuff on the internet, sending a bunch of that stuff in text message, and then called them because they took too long to respond. Then I asked them about what I sent and wanted to know if they liked it. I didn't realize this until my mom pointed it out to me.

sooooo... yeahhhh... I spent a whole day doing a combination of shopping, staring at the ceiling, and looking up memes on my phone/laptop. I cleaned a tiny bit, but that was so negligible compared to the mess my apartment is in!

[downandlonely]

I don't have much motivation either. I spent most of today sleeping.

Is shopping a lot a sign of mania for you? Might be something to look into.

[Sunflower123]

Absolutely. I’m going to bed soon and hope the problem resolves itself tomorrow.

[*Beth*]

I feel so trapped (COVID) that I've been sleeping 16 hours per day, overall. During the times I awaken I do some chores and get online (and yes, I have been shopping a bit more than I should). Once in a while I take a drive to look at the flowers blooming around town.


Is it the COVID situation that is causing your lack of motivation, blue? btw, I think it's sweet that you're calling your parents a lot

[Rick7892]

Too much shopping for me, too. I am getting stuff, open it up, but I am too overwhelmed so I don't do anything with it. But it seemed like a good idea at the time... A sign of hypomania/mania for me...

I just came from my email, where I had an email that would be so simple and short to answer. I couldn't even make myself do it(!) And was thinking, "man, I have no motivation!" as I was opening the BP forum. Had to laugh -- well there's the thread for me, lol!

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

just wondering... does anyone NOT feel motivated to do things? I'm SO bored.

In place of doing fun things, I've been shopping apparently. Spent way too much money on things like movies, books, etc.. I don't know why I did this when I was bored. I think I wanted new movies, books, etc. to try, but there are tons of movies, books, etc. that I own and haven't even watched/read yet! And some of these things... well... I don't know if I even want them anymore! The bulk of them are used though, so I'd have to resell them on eBay or something to get rid of them.

I'm not actually depressed. There are just so many things I can, need, want, and should do that I'm overwhelmed and just don't know what to pick/do. Thus, I just lay in bed and stare at the ceiling, feeling bored... but I can't actually sleep.

I bugged the s*** out of my parents by calling them 6 times today. I think they're sick of me calling so often, but of course they won't say that. But I was reading funny stuff on the internet, sending a bunch of that stuff in text message, and then called them because they took too long to respond. Then I asked them about what I sent and wanted to know if they liked it. I didn't realize this until my mom pointed it out to me.

sooooo... yeahhhh... I spent a whole day doing a combination of shopping, staring at the ceiling, and looking up memes on my phone/laptop. I cleaned a tiny bit, but that was so negligible compared to the mess my apartment is in!

Soooo, the shopping and the texting and the calling 6 times and being impatient makes me wonder about hypo stuff, you know? It all sounds super familiar to me. What do you think of that, blue?

[bpcyclist]

I have been generally amotivational for about 18 months. I've had two books I've written either done or almost done since then, but had zero interest in finishing the edits and pushing them out. I just haven't cared--at all.

Now, for whatever reason, I am extremely motivated and being very productive. I don't know what the deal is with me.

Hey thanks, everyone. I don't think I'm manic or even hypomanic. I legit think I'm just bored and trying to find things to do. So, I buy stuff, call people, text people, etc

I wish I had motivation to clean and do work, but I don't. I find those things boring and can't be bothered to do it. Yet, the irony is that I also find I boring when I sit around doing nothing!

I don't have much motivation either, but in the cult IOP I was in they told me you gotta make your own motivation can't just wait for it to pop up out of the blue otherwise nothing will ever get done

[Fuzzybear]

I find cleaning boring too and don't have motivation for it.

[Moose72]

I am also at loose ends. I've been researching the history of sound recordings today too (as you know) and listening to CD after CD, posting here, doing laundry, doing dishes... Don't get me wrong- my apartment is far from spotless, but I can't sit down for very long unless I'm on the phone. If I'm talking then I can sit and get into the conversation. I already talked with Caleb for 2 hours today which isn't unusual for us, but today's conversation was extra cool. (Not a lot of silence in between thoughts, that is.) I'm also a bit sped up- you can tell by how much I'm posting and how fast I'm typing. (If you could see my typing.) At the same time, I just looked at some gallons of distilled water for my CPAP and thought, "You should take those upstairs where your CPAP is... Nah... I'll do it later..." I'm also a bit on the hypo side today I think. I hope you enjoy what you bought today, but you can always return it if you really don't need or want it.

Sometimes I feel completely unmotivated, and then I start doing things and it snowballs. Looking back at the day, I did a whole lot. The early morning trip to Lowe's and the grocery stores (2 of them) with the alcohol wiping of all of the groceries. Then I spent what seemed like hours dealing with dishes and hand washing pots and pans (also seasoning a brand new skillet). Then I pressure cooked a beef roast, made a dill cream sauce, made Czech dumplings, steamed sugar snap peas, and sliced tomato. I set the table, cleared up the dishes again, then made homemade cinnamon buns from scratch. [Daonachd's mention of them yesterday made me crave cinnamon.] Then I took a shower, and then reheated leftover Chinese food for dinner. Helped clear up, and am now in bed at 6:35 pm. I had also done other little chores here and there. I'm completely drained and my back hurts.