Finally, diagnosed.

I was honest for the first time, I could be honest because doc listened to me without judging me, overreacting or forcing me to take a path I do not want to take.

In the past, I have lied a lot to avoid IP or being forced to take meds. I was lying because of fear.

I usually shut down when overwhelmed by racing thoughts and voices, that makes me look weird but unless I tell you what I am feeling and sensing you cannot know what It is happening. I guess that is why I have been misdiagnosed with a lot of things that did not make sense (like a PD when I was like a whole week sleeping 0 hours and wanted to kill myself and everyone else due to the extreme agitation and anger, It was not me, I am not like that, I was like possessed. The IP doc thougth I was always suicidal and angry).

This is great news!

A practitioner's willingness to listen without judgement can create a safe space for us to relate our experiences and our concerns.
I hope this is a sign of better professional care to come as well as a greater opportunity to have your needs met.

Thanks for sharing the good news!

So, what about that diagnosis, then? Is it bp 1 now officially?

Glad you have some information now.

Just what I was going to ask!

I'm happy that they have listened to you...

Bipolar, IDK if bipolar 1, bipolar 2, cyclothimia or schizoaffective (I have been previously diagnosed with psychosis nos). I am really prone to hallucinations, Death sometimes appears and talk to me. But I always remain calm even if in emotional pain.

I am more focused now, yesterday I got a kitten.
Though, I feel like a fraud. I am not really agitated rigth now. I feel awful feeling like a fraud, too much noises and screams inside my head. But I am fine.

Mixed, dysphoric hipomania.