[Victoria'smom]

So I stop therapy until I can think again. I didn't talk to her about it I just didn't reschedule appointment. I don't see the point currently. I just, can't think, can't right, and can't read. My husband thinks it's the medicine working but I'm still hearing things. I think I'm depressed. I don't think even the psychiatrist can help at this point. I'm taking my medicine. I don't see him for a couple of months anyways.

[yellow_fleurs]

I am sorry you are feeling that way. Are these new meds? Has therapy been helpful at all since you started or have you been thinking of quitting before?

[Victoria'smom]

I've been on this meds for 6 weeks. I was on it before at different times. It's the meds we really want to work but honestly I don't know. The AP is working but needs to be higher but can't complain about it. It works the best from everything I've tried over the past 10+ years.

I'm thinking I have paranoid personality disorder. What really got to me was t saying my fears while not likely isn't delusional. Which is good but it wasn't helpful. She wants me to have a prn for anxiety when home alone. I don't think I have the balls to ask for more medication. After the last session with pdoc have been awful I was confused and confintational.

It's not t it's me. I really don't feel I can learn anymore. I just have to deal and put into practice. If there's a specific issue I'll go back. If I start being self destructive then I'll go back. Maybe I'll just wait until we can meet in person.

[bizi]

I face timed with my new provider. I think I liked her but did not like the face time meeting. I can't wait for things to go back to normal.
bizi

[~Christina]

Well for some people unless medications are actually working and helping then Therapy is pretty useless and for some Therapy is never helpful. I know you had a good relationship with the T you had before you moved to Florida.. maybe one day you will find another good fit or maybe you wont and you will need to depend on working on yourself, maybe using DBT books to help you find more routine and structure in your life and in free info you can find anywhere online and of course here on PC...

We can often only strive to find calm in our lives, looking to find a place to be content

[Fuzzybear]

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[Victoria'smom]

I haven't talked to my husband about it yet. I made him go back to therapy a Couple weeks ago. So I don't know how this going to go. Plus I don't know if I'm hopeless because I'm depressed or what. I downloaded an app for checking my mood and sleep..

[*Beth*]

What you've posted sounds worrisome to me, Mm.

Like almost everyone, I've had to go to teletherapy. The transition was so difficult for me, I almost quit. I was a mess of furious anger. Honestly, though...after 2 months of it, I think I'm finally getting used to the video stuff. Yes, it's difficult, but it's doable.

Anyway, I'm wondering if you are in a group (again, video) or...anything? I mean, PC is fantastic. I know that, it's just...being in a one-on-one or in a small group can be so beneficial.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm not in a group or anything. Just PC and my focus isn't here. Though I try to read everything here everyday.but responding is hard.

Is it possible to keep the therapist in case of emergencies or for when you feel better? I would think she'd be understanding of not functioning well and asking for a break. You are describing a lot how my "pure" depressions are. Maybe take a break but be open to letting her know if things get worse?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I'm not in a group or anything. Just PC and my focus isn't here. Though I try to read everything here everyday.but responding is hard.

Groups irl can be hard (and not only in recent months...) I agree with spikes, could you keep the t for emergencies, or for when you feel better? I think she would likely be understanding of your need to take a break.

[Victoria'smom]

So do I make an appointment with her to talk about it or do I just wait until I need to make an appointment with her?

[~Christina]

Well ... Being proactive makes much more sense than waiting til your in need and then having to wait til she has a opening.

Have an appt on the books.

[Victoria'smom]

Thank-you I'll schedule an appointment tomorrow.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Did you get scheduled? I know it probably takes a lot of courage to do that.